Lyrics 1990s - Invicti

Back inside the basement I was studying the greats
Started with the rockstars
Daddy's light blue record crate
Made my through all of that then fell in love with gangsta rap
And the boy grew up shady even though he far from that
Didn't take too long for the pillys acting silly smoking weed
Dreams of being a rockstar do a show for twenty g's
Living free, life is glee
Then I fell into the seams
Captured somehow by a hoe then again in mickey d's
Then I lost one of my homies
Man that fucker really died
I remember his last moments
Member looking to his eyes
Member realizing it's over, ok nothing was the same
Ever since that fucking day something happened to my brain
I'm insane it's the caine'
All that snorting playing games
I was dreaming but not working thinking it was all the same
Thinking that somehow I'm owed it
Couple years and it'll come
Couple years done fucking past since my first album
Outcome honestly was nothing but I went repped it
Did a couple shitty shows sold a couple shitty records
It's depression yes it hit and that bitch done hit me quick
Bout' six months since I done quick and right back in that bitch
Met a hoe did some blow started dancing let it go
Pop a xanny fuck a nanny nothing matters to your bro
Let it go let it snow
Lakes are frozen that we know
How my shitty little city done passed up a million hoes

Welcome back to passing up on every abnormality
Welcome back to passing we all have the same anatomy
Welcome back to passing up on each one of your dreams
Welcome back to passing beside me on the street
I'm just trying to compete
Drove completely past the keys
I can barely fucking breathe
Get me back inside the sleep
I've od' been in panics saved my own life with a xanax
How fucked up is that shit
I'd a been a fucking casket

I'm an addict the most
I think I'm a ghost
Barely coasting through the days a paddle no boat
Then I gloat on these tracks like I'm out here packing mags
Like the one time I done shot somebody I couldn't handle that
That's a fact we all fake
I could not take the faith
That's somebodys brother or an uncle or their only base
That's a face
I live with
In jail they visit
My mind would lock me up
Without it's fucking image
If i did it