Lyrics Deep - Ivy Sole

I think I′m in love with a boy
But I don't deserve him, no I don′t deserve all your
Weary and worry and distance
I promised you anything, promised you nothing at all
My mama she told me to kill you with kindness
You killed all my courage, now I just contemplate killing these beats or admitting defeat, rejecting the weak, I'm not trusting the fall

I think I'm in love with Chicago
But I don′t deserve it, no I don′t deserve you
You blistering, blossoming body
Of Blackness and blowing and bullets and
Home of my father
My father in heavy, my pain and my temper
You gifted me that and you gifted me empty
Giving my tithes, back taxes for envy
I wanted you gone, but I know that you're in me

I think I′m in love with the rain
It's falling and falling and failing to bring all this life that it promised the life I was promised, I′m crying for solace and crying for you
I cry for you often, for Ruby, for Sybil, for Cedric, I scream like cicadas for winter, I'm longing and living, so long live infra my insta is happy, I hope that′s enough
I think I'm in love
I think I'm in love
I think I′m in love
I think I′m in deep
I think I'm in love
I think I′m in love
I think I'm in love
I think I′m in love
I think I'm in love with the music
But I don′t deserve it, no I don't deserve you
I take you for granted, I take you for foolish
I take you for given, when given is taken away
And I stray from the grind cuz I'm hurting or hungry or broken or stumbling, my stupor is nameless
But I hope you forgive me, I′m making this offering so one day they′ll know what my name is

I think I'm in love with my home
But I don′t deserve it, no I don't deserve you
The city of queens or of brotherly love, I′m living between you, I'm calling you kindred
Missing the streets of my humble beginnings, turning my cheek when you tell me good riddance
I need you I need you, I′m asking for passage
My passages reek of your secrets and image

I think I'm in love with a girl
But I don't deserve her, no I don′t deserve you
You blooming and beckoning body
Of golden and freckles, these heckles imagined and real
I′m holding you closer and pushing you sunrise
Or sunset, I'm trying to be braver and bolder
The weather gets colder, we smolder for sake of the sun
I told you I′m here til it's done