Lyrics addiction - J

Addiction
Like I feel like I'm not addicted
Or I don't have a problem
But I look back and I can't think of the last time
I wasn't high right when I woke up

So. Struggling through it
Addiction. No save points
Each day restarts the mission
Wake and bake is the new thing I anticipate
Uhh. Deep inhale makes the song sound great
No joke. Each one of my friends smokes
Some said no but I gave them the ropes
Now at night we're all battling our ghosts
Late night, we all getting close
Flower in their hand
It didn't make 'em blossom
Pitched it. Said, It will make you feel awesome
Got 'em. Feel like their soul I just robbed 'em
Tried to go slow. That didn't last
It's hard to do when the addiction makes my brain go fast
Remember being in class, seeing kids struggling through this
Said I would never do this
Now. Look at me. They don't care
Lion if I said no to the dare
Prevention is key, but it didn't stop me
Under the influence I'm high functioning
Why Stop? It gives me the boost
Hmm. Let's get down the roots

I take a hit cause I feel like I got hit
I take a hit cause depression won't quit
I take a hit cause I'm tired of it
I take a hit cause I couldn't achieve
I take a hit cause I can't breathe
I take a hit cause they didn't want me
I take a hit for the things they don't know
I take a hit to cover my holes
I take a hit cause I'm feeling really low
I take a hit for. Who knows

Every inhale is my last
Now I'm the kid struggling in the back of the class
Got money to make my habit last
Welcome to the zoo. Depression's my habitat
That means I live in that
Ooh. Looking down on me, but you paid to see
Wearing a mask before the fine, because I wasn't fine
Every injury sets me back
I gotta catch up. Falling behind

Every person that offers a hit
My struggle. Their co-signing it
Thank god I didn't do this in school
Kids feeling like this- Thinking it's cool
If I knew, I wouldn't of took the first pull
Feeling stupid. Feeling dumb
Seeking freedom from addiction
This is no longer fun
I'm done