Lyrics Thoughts - JB

I've been thinking a lot about the future me
Recent trials got me thinkin' if this is meant for me
These beats are comin' out dope but my lyrics still don't meet
Expectations I'm already hard on myself I don't need your hateful disease
Lately I've been introverted stickin' to myself all the time
I know I gotta get out more but I'm too busy writing this line
Music takes a lot from you yet at first it's hard to make a dime
I've been struggling to make it but I keep tellin' myself I'm fine
I keep saying to get out my way but really I'm the one reaching out
My circle feels so small everyone turns me down it fills me with doubt
But it's made my independence stronger until thoughts in my head get loud
I'm leveling with this loneliness I use the time to get the music out
(Get the music out get the music out) yeah I gotta get the music out
I gotta get it out so I can get my check that's what this really bout
Nah I'm still searching for the reason but it isn't all about the check
If that's the reason I should stop myself now and put myself in check
I've been thinking a lot about the future me
Recent trials got me thinkin' if this is meant for me
These beats are comin' out dope but my lyrics still don't meet
Expectations I'm already hard on myself I don't need your hateful disease
Recently I've taken a brand new perspective on life
Everything's been thrown and I'm rollin with my dice
It's crazy to me how your life can change completely in an instant
Now it's all a crazy ride and I'm buckled up it's all clickin
I just got fired so it's time to hustle this my ticket
Didn't see that comin' did ya?
Neither did I it was a mystery roll
But this struck me and I realized that I gotta focus I gotta ball
I'm beating these odds got knocked down but I'm focused on my come up
When you hit the bottom the only way is up
Stay focused on your mission and God will glow you up
See I have felt the stress it's kept me up all night (All night, all night)
Kept me thinkin' how I'm gonna make it how am I gonna fly
This can't be the end for me I see doors opening wide
Now it's time to step through and grow with God by my side
Life's been hitting hard all at once and without music I would lose it
So I've been hoppin' on the mic to record until I abuse it
I've been thinking a lot about the future me
Recent trials got me thinkin' if this is meant for me
These beats are comin' out dope but my lyrics still don't meet
Expectations I'm already hard on myself I don't need your hateful disease