Lyrics Crazy Ain't It - Jai Musiq

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This probably some of the realest shit I ever wrote, no cap
Mmm

To be honest, I don't know where to begin
I guess that's partially the reason that it all came to an end
I mean, after what we went through, how could we even be friends?
I caught feelings for yo ass
And really had to pretend that I didn't

Shawty how could you ever forgive it?
Afraid of what we could've been so I was acting indifferent
I had a wall up, I know that that's my usual defense
It's no wonder why you felt that you wasted all your time spent

Gave me all of you and wanted all of me
When you was feeling down, I knew that you was calling me
You kept a nigga high and made sure that I ate good
Ain't talking strictly food
But anything that you put on a plate good

Still remember the day you said you ain't trust me
Same day my mindset towards you did some adjusting
How could I be with someone who didn't believe that I got a good heart
You expecting me to deceive

That's why I told you I wouldn't even care if you leave
Used to being on my own anyway, wouldn't even grieve
Thought I was dragging you along, that wasn't even my steez
You couldn't tell from all the things I did to make sure you was pleased?

All the plays that I made back when you was selling trees?
Dropped it off when you was sitting off in class and couldn't leave?
If you ever hear this song, you gotta know that it's yours
Shit so real, I don't even need no chorus
That shit crazy ain't it?

Let that shit ride, Ricky
Just gon let that shit breathe
Know what I'm saying, it's 3 sides to every story
It's one person's side, the other person's side, then it's the truth right?
I guess this my side
But I swear to God all this shit real

Look
And it's fucked up
You thought you was a rebound, but really you lucked up
I showed you what I didn't show my ex
Fresh out the relationship, thought I was using you for sex
But I can't help that when I'm with you that that pussy gets so wet

I can't help that all my trauma made me do things I regret
I can't help my mama loved so hard and never got it back
I can't help she look at me and I remind her of my dad
I can't help that my outlook on love is tarnished and it's sad

Try my best to Do the Right Thing like Spike Lee
This battle with my demons got me self-destructing slightly
Remember I was fucking on you damn near nightly
Then I told you we was friends and that's how I knew you liked me

And I liked you too
But the cuffing something I couldn't do
And I ain't wanna lead you on, so I told you that too

I ain't mean to play with you, I just wanted you around
You had my back, I had your back
We really held each other down

Your grandma died, and I was there for you
My mom ain't see me for 2 weeks cause when I got off work
I came over to care for you
I folded, yeah that's fair and true
But you can't say I wasn't real with what I faced
I would've hurt you more by sparing you

It's still love if there was ever any doubt
I'm proud to see you doing all the things we always talked about
Couldn't say it to your face, so I put it in these lines
Who would've known the last time would've been the last time, damn

Know what I'm saying, sometimes like
A nigga just can't
Talk to you face-to-face and put his thoughts into words
So you know what I'm saying, I put it in a song nshit
I ain't expecting nothing from this shit
I just gotta get this shit off my chest
Fuck it