Lyrics The Great Pretender - Javion Bishop

Every tear I ever shed there was a touch of pain
Like every scar upon my skin I still remember how
It felt before, and now it's coming back around
And I had to write it down
Dead roses on my counter top sit up for days
Pray I don't relapse into my self destructive ways
My legs cramping blisters ripping on my feet cause I been
Running from it all going hard just to run in place
The great pretender you ain't happy you in character
You insecure but everybody thinks you arrogant
You write it down cause you ain't going back to therapy
You hate that you been disconnected from your heritage
A lost soul baby boy who made your heart cold
My vision blurry I was running down a dark road
Still afraid I'll be forgotten when it's all gone
Pick up my pen I close my eyes and let it all go

I never understood anxiety until I had it
Panic attacking in the bathroom when that mirror shattered
My mental cracking I was lashing premature reactions
Wondering why I ain't progressing I was running backwards
The great pretender you ain't rapping you just running off
Talking to yourself cause no one else can understand your thoughts
Manic depressive loose cannon watch me fall apart
Deep inside you still afraid of who you really are
I had a wicked premonition of my final steps
Clear as day I seen myself go hand & hand with death
Then I watched come to life before my eyes
And I survived, got me feeling like I live on borrowed time
The great pretender you ain't special you just lucky nigga
Put your heart in everything they still don't love you nigga
Pure intentions in your heart they still gone judge you nigga