Lyrics Shades of Grey - Jihad

Living now; It all exists. Imagery and dissonance
Watching, waiting everyday. I see it all. It's gone away

It's gone away

Never really knowing why. It crossed my mind a thousand times
Should I speak or should I sigh. I live to know I lose my
Mind. Event now; Even then; It all just constitutes my sin
Wishful thinking gone astray. I watch you fall. You make me pray

You make me pray

Nothing matters nothing goes. Restrain myself from all of this pain
I watch it fade. I own it all but nothing stays. It never really stays
Just fades away
Just fades away

Movements past. Matters grey. I held it high above but nothing stays

I go on living in the past. The best for worst I leave it now
I bury my thoughts they still exist. Nevermind it all conflicts. Nevermind

I close my eyes. I shut them tight. You're still in me I can not fight
You lay me down. I can not win. You make me stay. Now I begin