Lyrics Different Love - Joe Budden

It go, off of my sabbatical
Took a few years ′cause slaughter is what I had to do
Which only brings me to now, and I ought to be a radical
Say that 'cause my autobiographical is more so just a graph of you

I ain′t mad, you did more than what I asked of you
As for me, I did less than what I could've
So though we were a hit, had to cancel that show
And now my standing solo, I'll be amped when she not a ho

But what you doing right now is real commendable
Take strength to do
′Cause between us there′s some deep root stare
I gave you the best dick you ever got in your life

And stupid me, thought it would be enough to keep you there
I thought you loved football
I was running through the hole with the stiff on
But got disarmed, guess it was just harm

I ain't need to fuck, I was looking for a peer
They say once you stop looking, what you looking for appears
You were stronger than I pictured you, much stronger than me
And almost just as strong as John

And John, oh, that′s just a friend of my mom's
With tubes coming out his nose, but shit I never knew why
But he was born with his heart in the right side of his chest
No, for real, his heart′s in the right side of his chest (where?)

Doctors confused, they must do what they can do
But impute and say it ain't on the right side of his chest (hey)
Scared he might die in his sleep, deep (hey, hey)
Every time he cough wonders if it′s a cough or it's a symptom

Us will get better later
He gon' live his whole life waking up every morning to a respirator
So I don′t never say what I can′t do
If he can be happy with life, then, nigga, I can too

While José wanna die
Ain't tell nobody, but eyeing his eyes feel I should probably identify
Said everyday he lives with pain and want to end it
Something′s wired wrong in your brain, you gotta mend it

Had a bad breakup and let it expose dude
But if she was getting you high, then she would get you low too
So, who's there to wait on me?
Y′all just get it off y'all, and put the weight on me

Nigga look me in my eyes, it was amazing to me
And said she don′t understand, you not as crazy as me
You got gone, nigga, I'm the most mentally flawed nigga
You not even built to withstand all I've endured, nigga

You know shit about the thoughts in my head
Or the strength I need daily just to get out of bed
Just to open my eyes, nigga, open your eyes
The words spoken of wise, you just know a disguise

We can end this right here, I got nothing more to say to you
You ain′t never met another fucking nigga crazier
Blank stare, couldn′t believe 'em
Cat chastised me ′cause I got help when you need some

I can give less than a fuck and not a damn
I never be apologetic over who I am
I'm the same me, nothing changes when the riches do
But niggas wanna suck you dry, just like the bitches do

They enter your mentions, sucks to be the center of attention
When you can′t even center your attention
Yeah, so I'm fucking out of frustration
They love every second and accuse me of persuasion

Jam was a cancer to me, I had to rid it
Red got in her feelings fast, but won′t admit it
Dawn I was bored then, never really smithen
V got threatened by the thought of competition

Malo wanna fuck all day, don't know how
She why I got a Viagra in my wallet right now
Steph kept it simple, loved me for my mental
B got a nigga, but she used me as her rental

And you, you just give me resistance
Say you needed comfort zone, for you it's distance
I tell ′em all I′m not available emotionally
They start giving me advice like they coaching me

I don't even ask it
It′s something 'bout bipolar sociopath shit
They just find it attractive
Yeah, anti-social, but I mingle now

But I′ve been arguing much more since I've been single, how?
Tell me, is this a relationship or just a fuckship?
Whatever situation it is, it′s all fuck shit
I'll admit it, I might love her a li'l differently

As for them they′d all love to see a different me
Some cried to me, some are begging for it
Someone′ll see that change, but not be present for it
You just act so frightened

Ignoring all logic now, she won't buy in
Even in your absence my feelings are heightened
Though I know some love′s lost, it's not on my end

It′s not mine, it's not mine at all