Lyrics Overboard - Johnny Manchild and the Poor Bastards

Excuse my manners, normally I'm better
But I've been dragged through the fire
Torn and weathered, pieced back together
And not much left to admire
I've been tryin, honestly I'm dying
Keeping my head on straight
Stuck on auto, blink and breathe and swallow
Keep it up until I wake

The killing time, Lorazepam, borderline
Suicide, I've never been less sure
Man overboard

Friends expired, sympathies are tired
Even those who try to persist
Are few and seldom, succumbing to boredom
And I don't blame em a bit
I was better, tired of being weathered
But the latter got the better of me
Pick my poison, poise and make a choice
And I rejoice into nihility

Maybe I should say before I'm done
This isn't all that it's cracked up to be
This is not the way it's meant to go
But nothing goes the way it's supposed to be
And I am here, and I will persevere
And still I fear, the worst is to appear
The idle thought, is shifting into gear
The loudest sound, is ringing in my ears, Oh
Maybe I'm just buying time
Until the final time I try

The killing time, K chloride on my mind
Tired eyes, I've never been so sure, sure
Send me overboard