Lyrics The Return - Josh A

I took a break for way too long, was almost done with rap
I took some time to find myself, I'm healing from my past
I got issues, I got problems, but I'm still intact
But I got something on my chest so now I'm comin' back
My last album got some hate, they weren't in love with that
I put my soul into that project, gave it all I had
And now they're sayin' that I suck and my career won't last
I know they're chompin' at the bits to call this new one trash

That's alright, that's just the world that we live in now
Hate watching for amusement so, yeah, go ahead gather 'round
At my lowest, they laughin' now, used to love, they attacking now
Don't get who they impactin' now, everyday thеy harassing now
I might relapse, pick the pills up, put a bеat on, start spazzing out
Turn to me to be rabid, I'm getting rabid, combative now
Yeah, like anything I do, they'll hate it, don't even matter
Feels like it's me against the world, jump out the plane, yeah, I'm crashing out

This my passion, I'm only fallin' off right into madness
Yeah, I was gone, but I'm done bein' passive
Spit like a gun with illegal attachments, I'm done
No more tryin' for the ones that don't like me
Done with the industry they couldn't buy me
Now I'm just doin' what I wanna do and I still stay climbin'
And all my real fans, they know what's up
And I'm still here so focused up
Still cookin' tracks 'til they're overdone
Kill everybody opposin' us
Still in the lab, there's no closin' up
And I don't stop 'til it's dope enough
Like four years, I been sobered up
And I'm locked in and I'm loaded up

I feel like I'm runnin' outta patience
People talkin' down and I won't take it
I got something special, I won't waste it
I just don't compare to what they're saying
'Cause I know who I am, and I know who I'm not
They say that I can't, but I know what I got
Guess I'll do this all again, no matter what the cost
Throw my middle fingers up every time I drop

It's probably my own doin' lettin' this get to me
But push, push, push, came to shove so now that's history
It's one thing if you just don't feel what I been droppin'
This don't apply to you, I'm talkin' 'bout borderline stalking
They spreadin' lies, they spreadin' rumors, man I just don't see the humor
Always growin' like a tumor, got my mental in the sewer
While they hide behind computers, they critique all my maneuvers
They don't realize who I'm datin' needs consent from all my viewers
I'm not that type of rapper they don't understand
Like I don't walk around and do things just because I can
I don't put my life online to try to get more fans
Being famous just ain't something that is in my plans
So let me get right back to business, I'm an artist
I don't fit in, with celebrities or gossip or what's trendin'
This my passion, this my focus, this my magnum, this my opus
This the point where I turn my middle finger, to everyone in showbiz

Everybody talk too much, all those gimmicks are not enough
I feel like digma, the way when I show up, you know that I'm killin' whatever I touch
Back to back, but it ain't no rush, I'll drop a classic, don't call my bluff
I'm provin' 'em wrong and I'm lovin' the rush
I can't believe they all bought that junk, they talk too much, they stalk too much
No life so they pry on mine, they all parasocial, it's crazy
Attack the people who like my songs and paint them out like they glazing
Y'all grow up and grew out the music but y'all still somehow try to blame me
They pissed about it, so attack me but they the ones who one-eighty'd

But this is my return, I just don't care anymore
I got some brand new trauma weighin' on me, shakin' my core
Now all that negativity is at the bottom of my list of things that hurt me everyday, that make it hard for me to live
So sit and back and welcome to the show, if you love me, if you hate me
I don't care, man, I'm afloat, I just gotta get this outta me, it's weighin' on my soul
And if I vent about my pain, then maybe someone else will see they're not alone