Lyrics Melancholic Me - Josua Natanael

Struggle alot with my health
Wonder if it's mental or physical
I have no clue what's goin on
I need time to talk with myself

Oh i threw up last night
My body is full of fright
And i don't want all the limelight
I just want someone by my side

I don't know what i want and i don't know what i need
I'm just here sitting, feeding my greed
And i know everyone got their problem with
Their mental but i just want to live

Josh look up the sky and tell me what you want
Oh tell me what you need cause i need to make it right
And i've been struggling hard, learning about myself
So tell me what you want, and tell me what you need

Oh i don't know what i'll do tomorrow
Tired talking to myself
Oh fuck i'm so lost
Leave me alone let me cry in my room

Yeah I'm tired talking to myself
But without me, my heart's an empty space
If i had a dime for all my lies
I would be so god damn rich right now

I wanna be a better person after this
You tell me what you want yea tell me what you need
So i can be useful to everyone around me
And i can stop causing unwanted casualties

Josh look up the sky and tell me what you want
Oh tell me what you need cause i need to make it right
And i've been struggling hard, learning about myself
So tell me what you want, and tell me what you need

Oh i don't know what i'll do tomorrow
Tired talking to myself
Oh fuck i'm so lost
Leave me alone let me cry in my room

Fuck i always act with no thoughts
Nicotine, alcohol they cannot help me
And someday ya'll see me up there
And i promise that i'll make it out alive

I don't want anyone to know i'm upset
I don't want anyone to know that i sweat
Everytime i see me struggle with life
When i keep falling down sinking into the sea

Josh look up the sky and tell me what you want
Oh tell me what you need cause i need to make it right
And i've been struggling hard, learning about myself
So tell me what you want, and tell me what you need

Oh i don't know what i'll do tomorrow
Tired talking to myself
Oh fuck i'm so lost
Leave me alone let me cry in my room

Josh look up the sky and tell me what you want
Oh tell me what you need cause i need to make it right
And i've been struggling hard, learning about myself
So tell me what you want, and tell me what you need

Oh i don't know what i'll do tomorrow
Tired talking to myself
Oh fuck i'm so lost
Leave me alone let me cry in my room