Lyrics Favor - Jesu Remix - Jesu , Julien Baker

We took the forty down to
Visit the family and I
Told you the only kin I knew
Was who I could see from the gurney
I used to think about myself
Like I was a talented liar
Turns out that all my friends were
Trying to do me a favor

I always want to tell the truth
But it never seems like the right time
To be serious enough
I'm sorry I'm making myself cry

How long do I have until
I've spent up everyone's goodwill?

Sat on the hood, out all night
Trying to scrape together change
You pulled a moth out from the grid of your truck
Saying it's a shame
How come it's so much easier
With anything less than human?
Letting yourself be tender
Well, you couldn't make me do it

It doesn't feel too bad, but it
Doesn't feel too good, either
Just like a nicotine patch, it
Hardly works, then it's over

Who put me in your way to find?
What right had you not to let me die?
Ooh, but did I even know what I was asking for?
If I had my way
I'd have missed you more than you missed me
You missed me
You missed me, you missed me