Lyrics Song in E - Julien Baker

I wish that I drank because of you
And not only because of me
Then I could blame smething painful enough
Not to make me look any more weak

When you heard my name, you could be angry and
Have a good reason to be
Then when I sang in a horrible drunken parade of my worst thoughts
I'd say, "Give me no sympathy"

It's the mercy that I can't take

Well, I wish you'd come over
Not to say, "Stay," just tell me that
I was your biggest mistake to my face
And then leave me alone in an empty apartment
Face down in the carpet, I wish you'd hurt me

It's the mercy that I can't take