Lyrics Novacaine - Juvy

I don't know why i'm living, with this pain in my system
Told me that she's my rider, will die will i miss
Her will i lie right beside, her will i make this official
She my rider for life, i'ma give her that pistol
Lay her down for the night, give her what she been missing
Flick my tongue when im in her give what she's been missing

Think i live in a system, where my niggas turn killer
Bodies dropping it seems, that dont nobody give .a shit
I dont really get it why they killen us off
Even when we defending, locking all of us up
Unless we rich and privileged they given a fuck
So this is how we liven gotta kill or get shot

...damn...

Can you tell me why you here?
Why you live a lie, why i'm on the ground
But my mind in the sky
Why i live in fear, that i'ma never fly
Why when i speak, does nobody reply
Who am I?
Can you tell me lord,
can she give me something that i never felt before
Am i dieing, why i'm on the floor
Got scars on my wrist they call me a whore.

God whys everybody judging me
Nah, i don't really wanna speak
I'm just riding with no company
I'ma die, but i'ma never leave
Nah i don't really wanna be with all of these
Shordies telling me what they inlove with me
All i want is you up in the centre please

Don't leave...
Don't leave...
Shordie don't leave...
Don't leave...
Don't leave...
Don't leave...
Shordie don't leave...
Don't leave...
Don't leave...
Don't leave...
Shordie don't leave...
Don't leave...
Yeh...
Shordie don't leave...
Don't leave...
Yeh...

Can you tell that i'm pain
Why i feel this way
Why i look for love but all i get is this hate
Why i'll never grow and why i'll never be sane
So can we be insane together cause it's okay
I know you lookin for love and i'm given up to you
I know i left you heart alone and so confused
But let me tell you why there was nothing that i could do
I was lost in my mind i was looking for something new

A kid in his prime that was only living to loose
Mixing pills with the smoke, i was dieing and had no clue
All we ever did was fight, i didn't know what to do
Crying through the night, i made you feel like a fool
I never told you no lies i meant everything it's true
You said you was down to ride so im holding it down for you
I'm ready to fucking die, i don't care about what i loose

Cause, you goin raise my son i'm given up to you
You the only one that i could hold it down
Teach him what he needs and give him the crown
Always kept a smile, even when you frowned
Whenever you feel alone, i'ma be around
Unless you want me out cause, that's how it sounds...
Yeh that's how it sounds...
Unless you want me out cause, that's how it sounds...