Lyrics Beautiful Waters - Kathleen

Loneliness feels like dying your hair so many times
That the hairs fall out
That's how loneliness feels
Loneliness feels like bending your finger the wrong way
Then slamming it in a car door
On the way out of an argument with yourself
And emptiness feels like coming home from vacation
And seeing that all your plants are super dead
Oh, it took years to grow that orchid
Emptiness feels like missin' the nail
And hitting the whole fuckin' hand

So you get mad and hate the world
But really you just hate yourself

And hating yourself feels like uninterrupted darkness
Everyday for the rest of your life
Winter in the Beaufort Sea
And all of the while you're looking for answers
The internet's saying it's definitely cancer
And you've got 30 days to live

Oh, you wanna touch someone but you're just a shadow
And you're screaming in a dream but no one is listening
You're singing in the mirror
But no one's singing back

So you get mad and hate the world
But really you just hate yourself
I'm sorry l'm so mean to you
I guess I just forget

That my heart's a swinging door
Between happy
And empty
My life's a rising shore
Of beautiful waters

My heart's a swinging door
Between happy
And empty
My life's a rising shore
Of beautiful waters
Full of trash