Lyrics July - Laur Elle

It's gettin' late now, that's when I can't stop my mind
Lookin' for reasons, maybe it's just not my time
Change of the seasons, I'll be better by next July
I should be sleepin', but I'm stayin' up, like

One step forwards, fallin' backwards
I just wanna prove that I'm worth
More than what my head tells me that I am
I'll try again

How do I fake a smile and feel the tension?
Wait, I'm movin' too fast in the wrong direction
I've been runnin' around in the dark with no light
But I can't stop stayin' up lookin' for signs

We're back to Monday, and I'm startin' on time
Hope you can see that, I'm tryin' to get this all right
I'll quit the drinkin', and I'll speak my own mind
I should be sleepin', but I'm stayin' up, like

One step forwards, fallin' backwards
I just wanna prove that I'm worth
More than what my head tells me that I am
I'll try again

How do I fake a smile and feel the tension?
Wait, I'm movin' too fast in the wrong direction
I've been runnin' around in the dark with no light
But I can't stop stayin' up lookin' for signs

Stayin' up lookin'
Stayin' up, stayin' up
Stayin' up, stayin' up

Now I'm gettin' colder the further I go, but I can't seem to turn away
It's a bad habit, I know that I shouldn't, I'm makin' the same mistakes
I'm gettin' older, and I should know better, but this shit is hard to break
This shit is hard to break

How do I fake a smile and feel the tension?
Wait, I'm movin' too fast in the wrong direction
I've been runnin' around in the dark with no light
But I can't stop stayin' up lookin' for signs

Stayin' up lookin' for signs
I'll be better by next July (stayin' up, stayin' up)
I'm stayin' up lookin' for signs (stayin' up, stayin' up)
I'll be better by next July

I'm gettin' colder the further I go, but I can't seem to turn away
It's a bad habit, I know that I shouldn't, I'm makin' the same mistakes
I'm gettin' older, and I should know better, but this shit is hard to break
This shit is hard to break