Lyrics My Life - Lil JJ Reynolds

This song is dedicated to my life
And to anyone else who's dealing with a hard time in their lives
Need that music to vent to?
To vibe to?
Here it is
Ugh

A life gets born
In a world that's filled with so much pain, so much pain

A life untold
Gets exposed for me to tell
My Life

A baby seed from the 90s was born in 96
He would grow up, as an lunatic that couldn't be fixed
His brain would throw a fit when it didn't want to be bothered
He grew up all alone without a mother and father
Because of that, he took a step back from his dreams
He needed green, so he started work at age 14
He ran out of plans for a future strategy
That would of helped him and his family escape tragedies
Whatever he planned, he had no strength to pursue it
The only thing he ever cared about in life was the music
It saved his life and calmed his brain down when it wanted to kill
Or lay his body on the debt, filled with dozens of bills
That he couldn't pay on time, the biggest bill was the mortgage
He had to drop out of college cause he couldn't afford it
And he didn't enjoy it cause it would add to his stress
And what he planned to write next would add a hint to his death, he says

Oh yeah

In a world that's filled with so much pain, so much pain

A life untold
Gets exposed for me to tell
Let me tell you about my life

Another day, another mess he had to clean up
Between depression and life, he couldn't rest cause he was stuck
In a cycle that he couldn't break to pieces
The criticizing people around him said "he was making excuses"
He used that energy to boost in his music
To forget about the times when he wanted to lose it
The controversy struck him where his brain would feel it
Disappointment and doubt is what he started to deal with
Adding more to the pile of his notes and regrets
He wore his brain out when he used it to block away the stress
But it forced him to reminisce a fact that was true
And it was that he barely made it out of high school
Cause all the bullies and the hate made him a shell of a man
On top of fighting his illness that no one seemed to understand
And the more they didn't understand would make him more depressed
And what he planned to write next would add a hint to his death, he says

Oh yeah

In a world that's filled with so much pain, so much pain

A life untold
Gets exposed for me to tell
Let me tell you about my life

He struggled, working retail to get by
He knew that money was evil enough to dress in disguise
Behind his pride, he would save for some studio time
Behind his eyes, he would fantasize a life inside a prime
But was it worth to cherish what was never there
If opportunities were rare to come for him to be scared and never take 'em?
As guilt prepares to strike when he chokes
A scent of failure's set to fly into his nostril holes
Stuck with a choice of either staying or escaping his past
That included comfort in his zone that always helped him relax
If an example came to re-define the curse that was him
It would of proved that he was innocent from all the sin
But once again, he had to suffer thru what could be eternal
He wants to die so badly that he drew his coffin in a circle
His final breath would trigger up the hint to his death
And found suicide repeating out the threats that he left, It said

Oh yeah

In a world that's filled with so much pain, so much pain

A life untold
Gets exposed for me to tell
Let me tell you about my life

My life, my life
My life, my life