Lyrics CHANGE (feat. JAN.) - Lorenz , JAN

I don't know where to go
I'm feeling incontrollable
I was numb back then
Now I got more emotional
I had friends that had my back
I lost friends that turned their backs
They said I changed
But they changed too
But I changed for the better

I was down bad
I had to change for the better
They don't care 'bout my life
My past felt like
I was living with the devil
I had my sleepless nights

I was down bad in the back of my brain
Like I was going insane
Was feeling all this pain inside
Didn't feel alive so I changed
But when I changed, I lost friends
But when I changed, they got messed up
I was tired and I was fed up
Of all of these mistakes, I wish I never stayed
Look what it made me do
I was counting on you
On you (Yeah)
But you left me too

I don't know where to go
I'm feeling incontrollable
I was numb back then
Now I got more emotional
I had friends that had my back
I lost friends that turned their backs
They said I changed
But they changed too
But I changed for the better

I was down bad
I had to change for the better
They don't care 'bout my life
My past felt like
I was living with the devil
I had my sleepless nights

Back in 8th grade
I was clowning
For your ass
I was all your entertainment
I got pushed and pulled
I was forced and used
I don't know why it took me
4 years 'til I faced it
Had to realize y'all was basic (Basic)
Shitting on my music
How I made it (Made it)
Now you bumming on your ass (Nah)
Ain't creative
Now I'm all real
I don't need to fake it (Yeah)

You changed
While I'm changing for the better
I think that we can't be together

I don't know where to go
I'm feeling incontrollable
I was numb back then
Now I got more emotional
I had friends that had my back
I lost friends that turned their backs
They said I changed
But they changed too
But I changed for the better

I was down bad
I had to change for the better
They don't care 'bout my life
My past felt like
I was living with the devil
I had my sleepless nights