Lyrics But When I Know Who I Am - Lylajean

I knew a boy at school named William
And we didn't get along
But it struck me how it shifted
And he was one of my few friends
He moved away at some early age
And I never thought of him much
But I guess my brain retained how
I had never had that trust

I had a dream that we were both at
A giant school with deadly traps
I traveled far and wide to find him
In an attic wooden black
I had come back from the future
Cause I knew that he was dead
And the blood came rush before me
But we always knew our lines

William, I know you are dead
If you don't get out of your head
How can I tell you to leave
Without saying that I love thee?
I walked away when I lied
"You know, I have always loved you"
Suddenly, his suicidal perch
Turned into my own shadow's lurk

I went around this school with errands
Tossed around by random kids
I don't know what I'm supposed to do here
But I'll always grant your wish
And now William thinks he owns me
Cause he thinks that love is cute
And I'll stay with it regardless
Cause I live avoiding guilt

Should I be proud or confused
As the savior of this poor boy?
All that I do is appease
And I wonder what will I be?
Should I be proud or confused
As the savior of this poor boy?
All that I do is appease
And I wonder what will I be?
But when I know who I am
There are so many things to add
But when I know who I am
There are so many things to add