Lyrics Paralysis - MACH3TEJ

Got my eyes staring at the ceiling
Heavy pound, got me pulling down
Wanna rise up no feeling
Mental screams for a way out but they
Won't even hear you squealing
Can't talk with the mouth sewed
But they don't know why
Me myself and I
Wanna be free
Hella foggy when you see everybody's self esteem
Wishing I could be you ain't give a damn about me
Never had it as a child be the same shit I see
The same shit I bleed
Numb stuck kept the gun tucked
All the shots ain't worth shooting
Never in it to be loading rounds
Tryna move around feeling looted
Only gripping at it's best
Holding tight never loosen up
Got you paused up like a gay bar
All abilities put the deuces up
Never wanted to be chosen
Came by and it chose me
Then it froze me like I'm posing
Been going through the motion
Had to carry self transparency
Nigga FTG be the slogan
Had the old self be the old me
But the feeling ever so ghosted

So much lack that I really stack
Hard to move on
Had it in me then I took a shot
Hard to move on
Bringing all the grind plus deprivation
Never time for the meditation
Back to back for the others waiting

Ever feel like your attitude
Making more moves then you think
Waking up in the same pain
Mary j in the same name
Every word that you gonna hear
Got to block them out what a damn shame
Most of them do the talking
But they really going through the same thing
Its all easy when its said
Never done like you planned it
All verbally facade
Kept a nigga looking stranded
Only shaped by the flaws
The good about me is abandoned
Ain't no shine when accommodating
They are only gonna take advantage
Wanna dip out please take me lord
Freedom what I've been feening for
Visions coming feet beneath the floor
I've been narrow minded like a corridor
Mental state is incarcerated
Same shots where the targets aiming
Red dot for the third view wanna burn you
Please penetrate it
Never wanna pass my limitations
Only feel is debilitation
Ring around a fucking rosy
I'll be given one when obliterated
Lead me to another route
Always wanna reel a nigga back in
Thought I really wanted out
But a nigga really still trapped in

So much lack that I really stack
Hard to move on
Had it in me then I took a shot
Hard to move on
Bringing all the grind plus deprivation
Never time for the meditation
Back to back for the others waiting