Lyrics I Tried to Kill Myself - Mac Lethal
I
got
a
deep
depression,
I
don't
sleep
when
I
need
the
rest,
And
so
I
got
a
crippling
anxiety
inside
me,
That's
about
to
eat
my
flesh,
man,
I
just
wanna
feel
relief
and
lessen,
All
the
needless
questions,
But
I
keep
on
stressing,
And
I
keep
obsessing,
I
keep
looking
at
my
phone
every
3 damn
seconds,
Just
to
read
my
texts
and,
Then
I
keep
refreshing
Instagram
Every
minute
just
to
see
some
breast
skin,
If
you
wanna
hurt
me
you
don't
need
a
weapon,
Cuz
I
keep
the
stress
in
so
deep,
That
I'm
prolly
gonna
bleed
to
death
from
all
the
Ulcers,
diseases,
infections,
and
hunger
to
reach
perfection,
I
used
to
take
drugs
just
to
ease
the
tension,
But
when
you
take
drugs
the
Grim
Reaper's
present,
I
ain't
talking
about
the
reefer
you
need
for
stress,
I'm
talking
bout
the
pain
killers
that'll
keep
you
sweatin,
I
shouldn't
be
alive;
here's
a
bleak
confession,
I
was
overanalyzing
each
regret,
I
got
emotional
inside
I
wanted
to
go
somewhere
and
die,
So
I
climbed
up
to
the
roof
of
the
tallest
building,
Took
the
deepest
breath
and...
Closed
my
eyes...
Then
I
JUMPED.
Like
finally.
I
can
be
free
from
stressing,
I
can
be
free
from
this
deep
depression.
I
braced
for
impact,
I'm
gonna
go
smack
on
the
street
in
seconds,
The
fall
took
longer
than
I
thought
it
should,
I
spread
my
arms
and
tried
redirecting
my
body,
So
I
could
hit
the
ground
sooner,
Ready
to
die
like:
Heaven's
waiting.
I
decided
to
open
up
my
eyes
and,
Holy
shit!
I
was
levitating.
You
gotta
be
joking.
I
never
hit
the
ground
I
was
in
the
air
floating.
I
grew
two
big
white
wings
when
I
jumped.
And
now
both
of
them
were
open,
And
I
couldn't
even
close
them,
And
above
my
head
was
a
halo,
I
said
to
myself...
"Uh.
If
I'm
not
mistaken,
I
think
I'm
an
angel.
Yep
I'm
an
angel.
Look,
I'm
an
angel,
I
see
it
myself."
I
don't
believe
in
angels
though,
Which
makes
sense
cuz
I
don't
believe
in
myself,
My
wings
are
spread,
I'm
flying
so
high
right
over
my
city,
You
know
what?
I
never
realized
god
damn
man
this
place
is
kinda
pretty,
Look
at
that
sunset,
look
at
that
horizon,
Look
at
that
man
playing
songs
on
the
violin,
I
just
wanna
put
a
couple
dollars
in
his
hat,
His
song
is
so
pretty
I
just
wanna
go
and
clap,
Look
at
that
homeless
guy
he
looks
hungry,
He
prolly
needs
a
ride
to
the
shelter,
Look
at
that
pregnant
woman,
trying
to
cross
the
street,
Man,
somebody
should
help
her!
Look
it's
my
grandmother,
Look
it's
my
damn
brother
holding
hands
walking
to
the
store,
Look
it's
the
girl
that
I
loved
for
years,
She's
on
my
front
porch
knocking
on
my
door,
I
don't
understand
when
I
told
her
that
I
liked
her,
She
said
we
should
just
be
friends,
Does
she
want
me
now?
I
wanna
talk
to
her,
Wait
a
sec...
no!
My
life
can't
end!
Oh
my
god,
there's
my
dog,
In
my
back
yard,
I
forgot
to
let
him
inside,
I
remember
all
the
lonely
days
where
he
would
snuggle
me
And
keep
me
company
I
swear
I
would
pet
him
and
hide,
He's
kinda
old
and
he
can't
see
well,
So
he'll
prolly
never
find
a
new
home,
And
right
there
is
the
cemetery
where
my
dad
is
buried,
And
on
his
tombstone,
It
says:
"Here
I
lie.
Proud
of
my
children,
I
taught
them
to
know,
That
whatever
doesn't
kill
them
will
make
them
stronger,
FUCK.
I
let
em
down
I
should've
made
it
longer."
I
realized
that
my
life
cannot
get
better
without
me.
I
realized
that
my
life
on
earth
was
never
about
me.
Happiness
comes
from
helping
people,
From
making
em
feel
good,
and
showing
I
care,
I
blinked
my
eyes
and
I
was
laying
in
my
bed,
I
didn't
really
die
it
was
just
a
nightmare,
Got
out
of
bed
and
put
on
my
shirt,
shoes
and
pants,
I
guess
I'll
give
this
life
thing
one
more
chance.
Shit...
I
got
a
deep
depression,
I
don't
sleep
when
I
need
the
rest,
And
sometimes
I
fall
asleep
and
I
dream
of
death,
And
I
wake
up
feeling
better
like,
I
guess
I
just
needed
some
decompression.
No
matter
how
sad
you
are
don't
give
into
the
pressure.
Just
watch
this
video
on
repeat
until
you
start
to
feel
better.
I
LOVE
YALL.
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