Lyrics Bye Now - Machary

Man it's crazy that I feel this way
Yea I think i fell in love we came a long way
Tryna get paid
Tryna get bae
Wanna mess around and try da get laid
And that's a true outburst
Looking in the mirror fearing wat can be worst
Put my finger tips and palms together questioning God in parentheses of a sentence am I curse?
Like I don't understand
I just wanna friend
That can help with plan
Living so depressed
Never felt the best
I just want somebody to put a bullet in chest

And I'm always thinking of death
I really don't know what's best
In the room broken hearted
God I hope this a test
Cuz im always laying down with negativity
My mom said me to think positivity
There's nothing positive to me
Every time I check my history
I'm always down to the ground
Being destroyed by my enemies
Why I let the devil get to me
My biggest dream is to make money and be in the rap industry
I wonder would that happen to me
Every time I turn around I see a attack in me
I don't wanna live negative cuz everytime I make a song
I mess get stress and get too competitive
And really man I never brought nothing myself
Never been affluent
Never had good wealth
Stuff is absurd
I'm the scapegoat of everything
Telling my parents how I feel won't make a change
It's like I have tunnel vision
Of demons tryna change me
And the devil got face me
I really hope I get on stage this year I hope it was meant to be
I think I'm losing my mind
Cuz every single friend that I had left me behind
I never really got that true attention
So my attitude was super tremendous
Cuz nobody really gave me that attention
Can I tell you a secret? I got bully in the 4th grade
I was scapegoat everything couldn't change the ways
I really fucking hate it
Sometimes I really inhibit questioning god asking him why did he make me
I was fricking ungrgateful
I was dealing with some demons
That were so undefeatful
I know females a play you
The things ppl did to me in the past make me so evil hateful fuhhh!