Lyrics Obsession - MadKid

Yeah
This is my life
This is type of shit that I′m going through
Listen, maybe you will understand
Check it out

I think about rap every minute
Every second, for real, yeah, I mean it
Sometimes I wanna quit, but I can't, ′cuz I'm in it
I have feelings for it, I wanna kill, still I feel it
I hardly recognize myself looking the mirror
I changed through the years, now I can remember clearer
I lost connections with people, who were close
Started to be closed person, this is bigger loss
I lost weight when I stopped doing work out
I started to eat less, increased work hours
When mama said "It's not good, you should give pause"
I started to go studio more, and leave house
I don′t enjoy every music, when I listen to it
I′m tryna hear kick, snare, I mean, whole the beat
And holy shit, it was better when I didn't do mix and mastering
Maybe, I′m master at it, but I'm sick of it

Dream
You already should have known
I′m gonna keep it real
That I'm boutta give my soul
And I wanna keep it low
But I cannot keep it low

I got a certain dream
You already should have known
I′m gonna keep it real
That I'm boutta give my soul
And I wanna keep it low
But I cannot keep it low

Gotta spend more time with my fam
With my friends and most probably with my girlfriend
I love her more than music, gotta let her know
I gotta study too, but I'm skipping the classes
I′m staying home, studying myself with the classics
Listening to one album a day for me is a passing
Working with laptop one day will make me wear the glasses
Gotta picture myself after 10 years
Working on album, writing songs and same shit
Maybe, my dream always gonna stay same dream
Maybe, gotta search for something else to save me
I never say my real name in my music
But I′m tired of MadKid, don't wanna use it
My name is Farid. Hi, can I ask a question?
Have you ever been through something like obsession?

Dream
You already should have known
I′m gonna keep it real
That I'm boutta give my soul
And I wanna keep it low
But I cannot keep it low

I got a certain dream
You already should have known
I′m gonna keep it real
That I'm boutta give my soul
And I wanna keep it low
But I cannot keep it low

Dream, dream, man
It′s just a dream but, I became addicted
It's not a drug, it's not alcohol
It′s just a dream, but
Maybe, it will always stay a dream, but
I don′t understand
Alright, man, whatever