Lyrics 4ThaLuv - MalakaiTheGreat

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4ThaLuv

Elijah Hocker
You really killed this one
So ima have to do my best to make due what it do
Ya know?
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Motivation
So we can get up out the hood
I made a bigger picture that nobody understood
Cause when you from Killeen it's all you really know
So if I'm honest
I'm afraid to leave two fifty-four

Cause it's home, and it's been since nine-nine
I was born in ninety-eight
So I been here a long time
Enough to get acquainted with most of the city
I even got some deep ties with the church committee

All my life
I been stuck inside a box
I'm from a place where niggas hide they hands
Whenever they throw rocks
But wanna play gangsta
Just cause it looks good on the gram
Don't get me wrong, I know some killas
That don't really give a damn

That used to be me
But I chose to live that lifestyle
I could've went to college
But instead, I chose to live my life wild
I don't regret it
Cause that's what got me where I am
It's time to get back to the book and pen that made me who I am

A man of dreams
And though they tell me life ain't what it seems
Ima keep grinding and making money by any means
Staying focused
Cause niggas tried to break me down
But by the grace of God
I stayed on top and made it back around

Kill or be killed
That's how I always looked at life
Until I saw my first child growing inside of my wife
And when he came
I knew I had to make a change
I thank the good Lord for this child that carries my last name

And his momma too
Without her, I don't know what I would do
I thank her for sticking with me
Even when we ain't have no food
Now we up livin', eating out of the finest restaurants
Wondering how the hell did we make it out
Still the question haunts

What if I never picked her up for that studio session?
What if I overdosed instead of just countin my blessings?
What's if my father never went back to the army?
And we never moved to Texas?
Or them cops never disarmed me?

Niggas be fakin'
You only find out when you down and out
It be ya realest niggas only fuckin witchu for the clout
Notice how when they needin somethin they all come around
But when you in need of somethin they nowhere to be found

Now that I'm older
It's a lot of shit that I realize
It's very crucial that I gotta care for me and mines
Cause in the end my family's all that I got
Can't keep on actin like I'm kosher when I know that I'm not

I hear these voices all inside of my head
Sayin I should be dead
But I don't listen instead
I smoke a blunt to get my mind right
Cause in the end it's just my conscious, I ain't crazy, right?

Now I don done some dumb shit I'm my past
And I would like to right my wrongs
I'm prayin every night, and every day I'm writin songs
In hopes it all gets better right before I go
When will I suffer my demise?
I guess we'll never know
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