Lyrics Going Under - Marillion

Is it wrong to talk to myself even when there′s nobody else
I'm just checking out that I′m not gone under the water
Thrown on the beach like a seal ready for slaughter
Can't you understand that the way things were planned
It never worked out so I just went crazy
I took to the drink, like something says it's "maybe"

I ain′t got no excuse and that′s really the news
Got nothing else to say, that it's my way, it′s always my way
I seem to be running away so often
I'll try anything once and that′s the way we should be
But it's always the same getting caught up again in a habit
A habit I just can′t shake off the way it always turned out
Can you understand it's the way I choose to be
Everything seems so easy this way but I'm going under fast
Slipping away
Am I so crazy