Lyrics Trudge - Mawcus

It's that one I can't ignore
I don't do it for nobody, no ears, no- it's just for me
Trying to find that balance, nothing short
It ain't about what it look like, it's about what it is
You feel me?

It ain't no trust without the us, and rust, that's love
But regardless if I got your blessings, I'll trudge
It mean more that we ain't family, but our bond like we blood
Cause I ponder enough, I ain't free from the fuzz
Cause I wandered enough, and I honored enough
Cause I sonder enough, ever since I was young
I been somber enough, and I longed for enough
Til' my timing is up, leave my mark, not a smudge

It's Mawcus, I don't proclaim that cautious
Had to harness out my darkness, no gargoyles lofting
I say that to say everybody got a void that's frostbit
They know I'm sick too, but when pops was sick, I'm really nauseous (lost it)
Had some run-ins with some karma I ain't think was custom (for me)
Had my dumb shit, I was tryna find my way, no Tubman
I'm dubbing love, self care and moments that would bring me solace
Judicial for something little, now I'm late to college (Tolland)
The drive to class like forty-five, I'm in the boonies hustling
But the drive to class take more desire, my whim to fully function
I've pried through practice, fortified my hymns, recite through suffering
Rap prize the gimmicks, short the rise of him, can't size up Mugsy
Bogus, they bark in kennels, but let 'em out, they bitches
Lately I feel terrific, I hope you see the difference
Restless for recognition, not microwave clout that fizzle
Oven them good-for-nothings, can't stand the heat of kitchens
Feast or famine, I'll do damage in the best of interests
On my pivot since Smith would cuss us out at LP Wilson
Tried to ignore that I'm a leader, but they really didn't
That came with age, I seen the ways, that's why I keep my distance
Keep in touch with all my loved ones, OT and where we come from
Whether new heights or humdrum, "he's thorough" is what they sum up
Imma tell you that I love you, don't hurt me to say
Because my love's no easy button just to sow dismay
Was never perfect, but been polished through like every phase
Some tales you'll never take, of how I fended fray
Some nerves I'll never shake, but nervous made me great
My gravity been grabbing me, it's taxing me, I value space
Seen many realms that helped me get up out my shell (uh-huh)
I wear it well, but there's been times I'm overwhelmed (uh-huh)
Did my delving just to find out where my hell is
Now I'm grateful who I'm blessed with, and I'm selfish for my welkin (for my)

It ain't no trust without the us, and rust, that's love
But regardless if I got your blessings, I'll trudge
It mean more that we ain't family, but our bond like we blood
Cause I ponder enough, I ain't free from the fuzz
Cause I wandered enough, and I honored enough
Cause I sonder enough, ever since I was young
I been somber enough, and I longed for enough
Til' my timing is up, leave my mark, not a smudge, ugh