Lyrics Change - Midas

Can I find myself
Sometimes it feel likes she all that I know
But can I trust somebody else
And it comes to show
You cant rely on no one else
I've been in my mind
I need to unwind now
My Family knows I've been down
Need to go outta town
Where you not around
But the memories there
I need me some air
Sometimes I wish a nigga never cared

365 days
Ago
My gaze was a lot different
With Innocence
My life was making sense
Wish I could go back
I could maybe relax
Not let stress and lack of her presence
Viciously attack
Nah I am me
And They could never change that
Tryna flip my mindset when people rob you of your happiness
Cause they own life's missing that
I guess I found mine in rap
It's daily flashes of you in my city
January walking in the cold
Cost 7,50 for the bus
But I just trusted my soul
Thought I struck gold
But lately it felt like I always was low
And I was bold
For thinking that things would change
Conquered by pain
Wasn't in vain
But the shit that I'm going through made me change
Damn
My close ones look inside my eyes and see strain
Tryna hide my weaknesses Cause I'm scared they'll think I'm lame
Mama told me turn your sadness to a blessing
Hun
You'll be ok
Plus personne pourras te blesser son

I don't know
I'm scared to show too much of me
They always use it freely
Why the f*ck do I always feel like I'm treated unfairly
Guess I was chasing my own fairytale
You woke me up but I wished that it could at least end well
And I could kill
The dreams of us saying farewell
And I could tell your family
"Thanks"
Haven't touched alcohol can't drown
My sorrow in a drink
I can't keep the page blank
Lost 10 pounds since November 7th
Yeah that's my heart sank
To my stomach
I lost my best friend
And it's troubling
I'm tryna walk alone
And I can't lie
I've been stumbling
I can't lose my balance
To me that's the hardest challenge
All the hate in me gathers
Tho it don't affect my cadence
Give your soul to someone else
But what's if it's not enough,
Can't give trust to no one else
Now Im alone and it's tuff
Yeah I Wrote "My Ego" for you
So I killed my ego
For uou
Tried to kill evil
In me
So you'd only face the truth
And now I'm the booth
Instead of drinking booze
I know I'm sad but what happened I didn't get to choose
The blues I be feeling
I know you think I'm the villain
That's ignant
"Way out" play in my ears
Thinking of better times
A different segment
Of my life where I ain't lose my mind
Since that day u broke my heart I really began to grind
Maybe I'll find my peace of mind
And be fine on my own
Maybe find the strength to sit on the throne
Yeah

Lately the pain in my life is way too strong
Gave you every part of me
I gotta learn to own again
Gotta simply be in my zone again
It's fuck a trend
Ima keep rapping and be whole again
Chilling with my hooligans
I don't need nobody
Not even my friends
Tho I love em dearly
But I can't pretend
I ain't relied on you
So now excuse me
If I gotta spend
Time to gain my confidence
Back
Can't reach peace
Hunted by my past
Yeah summer went by too quickly
See you in my next life maybe
I mean you changed me
Showed me how it was to not be lonely
A blessing and a curse
Cause when you saw my worst
It was repugnant
Now I'm writing on pages
Every second
To cure pain
And loneliness
But I still be only chasing greatness
Make it no matter what the case is
Bake it find out what cake is
Figure out the mazes
I just gotta stay focus
I've been in my grind
Can't be bogus

Can I find myself
Sometimes it feel likes she all that I know
But can I trust somebody else
And it comes to show
You cant rely on no one else
I've been in my mind
I need to unwind now
My Family knows I've been down
Need to go outta town
Where you not around
But the memories there
I need me some air
Sometimes I wish a nigga never cared