Lyrics bittr glittr - Missing Texture

Mhmmm
Ooh, ooh
When you still depend upon
Never did I ever want a throne this big
Stranger things have happened though, no Joseph Quinn
I let myself fall off the wagon, I got soul to give
Let myself feel everything
Beauty, terror- you dig? (But it just ain't no use)
I just thought that making music would heal my soul
I got skeletons and secrets, shit I can never let go
Yo I feel it in my heart, bro I feel it in my brain
Aiuto, someone help me
I'm just moving through the rain (But it just ain't no use)
One, family name had me feeling so bittr
Took, one whole year but I'm finally seeing glittr
I just, can't be bothered with the sanity game
By the time I got my meds, she'd be feeling the same
So I, let it go, yo, Elsa made it snow
Winter on the way though, I ain't even fucking know (It won't-)
Now I, take my pills, it's run of the mill
Truly wish her well, but, hope she reminisces still (It won't-)
Contradictions, juxtaposed my whole life
Bitter sweet, bittr glittr, I hope you're catchin' my vibe
I ran up the mountain but, underestimated the size
By the time I'm dropping this
Know my eye on the prize (When you still depend upon-)
They say it takes two years to come back from that sunken place
Need to cut that shit in half, I'mma get out, save face
I'm not perfect, never will be
Fuck my pride and my temper (I said I-)
I'm the man I always planned to be
I'm sinful and severed (But it just ain't no use)
I was beefin' those I love, always knew it'd get better (I said I-)
Opened up a conversation, put my shit back together
Gotta air it all out, only way to change the weather
I'm prophetic when I need to be, but missing forever (I said I tried)
Yuh (But it just ain't no use)
I'm myopic when I need to be, no one opposes me
Copped a genie with my excess green, I'm off that Hennessy
Asked my genie for an extra three, he gave the lamp right back to me
And all my wishes came to be so now I'm screaming "c'est la vie"
Some people say they love me but they'll never press play
And that shit not adding up, dap me diss me, same day
Figured it's my own ass fault, started paving my own way
Started cutting all my corners, bulked my body like I'm Wade
Buspirone could never help me, no my problems stem from hate
My complacency takes hold of me the more I flirt with fate
Never yield, keep it real, still might pop another pill
Make a mil my flow is trill, I'm purified and I'm distilled
If they ever need a pick me up, my city hits me up
I'm like if your favorite rapper's rapper had a bit of buzz
Writer's block could never stop the menace that I have become
If I'm in your neighborhood just take your bitch and fucking run
Been praying for success so much- forget I even made it
I've got women, money, power, talent- all I did was take it
Everything is bittr glittr, spoiled candy in the villa
I'm creative and abrasive, high with D up in Manila
As-Salaam-Alaikum as I'm pouring out another shot
Maybe when I'm faded "bittr glittr" forms a better plot
Got too many waging war on me, I'll show 'em I can do it, aye
Make this the intro, I can really fucking prove it