Lyrics Thinking - Mr Jones

Sometimes I get to thinking
When I look up in the sky
Whether we're alone and if we are then tell me why
I'm just tryna stop my mind from being so preoccupied
I just wanna understand just what the point in all this life
To get a load of money, a better car that we can drive
When there's people in this world who are
Happy to survive
Waking everyday to go and work a 9-5
That can't be the one and only reason I'm alive
But I'm just tryna get better, everyday I really try
Sometimes it gets hard, and I ain't gonna lie
But I sit and I cry and everyday I wonder why
I'm asking for some guidance when I look up in the sky
Can't even open up when people say that they love me
And I look up in the sky but there's no one above me
I'm standing in the edge waiting for someone to push me
So many things I wanna say but there's no one can shush me

I think about sunshine
I think about rain
I think about love but then I think about pain
I think about then
I think about now and I think about lies
When I think about vows
I think about you
I think about me
I think about all the things that we were gonna be
I think about yours
I think about mine
I think about everything and nothing at the same time

Sometimes when I've been drinking
I just get to thinking
Sitting staring into space, fixated never blinking
Cruising through my life on this ship forever sinking
Fighting constant battles with my armour always chinking
I think about the friends that I've lost along the way
I think about just how we went from speaking everyday
To being strangers overnight and never knowing what to say
It's so hard to move on when you've been dealing with betray
I think about this and then I think about that
But then I think about the knives that are stuck inside my back
I think about anything to occupy my brain
I just think about anything to take away the pain
Every movement that I make it opens all of my deep cuts
You're just another stranger who knows all of my secrets
Think about lights but then I think about bleakness
I Try to find my strength but then I think about weakness

I think about sunshine
I think about rain
I think about love but then I think about pain
I think about then
I think about now and I think about lies
When I think about vows
I think about you
I think about me
I think about all the things that we were gonna be
I think about yours
I think about mine
I think about everything and nothing at the same time

I've been tryna get my head straight
I ain't got the head space
Carry so much baggage in my mind they call me headcase
Survive another year and that scenario is best case
Sometimes I just feel,
In my mind it ain't the best place
I think about my life and I think about death
I think about peace but then I think about stress
I think about progress I think about success
Then I think about failure but I do it in excess
I think about the life that my daughters gonna have
I think of what she used to have and it makes me so mad
I'm only getting half the time and being twice the dad
None of this was my choice and it makes me so sad
But the pain that I can feel
It's like a pain that never heals
It's just the pain that never gives
It's just the pain that always steals
I play the cards I'm dealt but it's the pain that always deals
And you'd be broken too
If you felt the way I feel

I think about sunshine
I think about rain
I think about love but then I think about pain
I think about then
I think about now and I think about lies
When I think about vows
I think about you
I think about me
I think about all the things that we were gonna be
I think about yours
I think about mine
I think about everything and nothing at the same time

I think about sunshine
I think about rain
I think about love but then I think about pain
I think about then
I think about now and I think about lies
When I think about vows
I think about you
I think about me
I think about all the things that we were gonna be
I think about yours
I think about mine
I think about everything and nothing at the same time