Lyrics Lately - NoBreadE

Sick and tired of everybody telling me go back and teach
Like My body wasn't choosing nightmares over dreams
Waking up cold sweat tryna figure out how I get my kids to read
Like I wanna know more bodies who will never see 23
Like I ain't gain 20 pounds off the strength of stress
Just to lose it all during quarantine
But I had to let go let God and get home
I swear I had a plan
Yeah, I had goals
Move back, write from home, save up, and get dough
But little did I know I was in for a shit show
Mom stressin' out, I gotta introduce myself
To grams every day
That's my world staring at my face
Asking for my name
This point only Bailey keeps me sane
That's why this summer I'm showin' out
And I ain't fallin' victim to my doubts

Lately
I've been out here faded
Ten toes down, save me
Baby
Gotta stand strong on this will
Lately
I've been out here drinkin'
You're what I'm missin'
Listen
Gotta stand strong on this will

Ya not here for the family
Y'all here for the chemistry
Like who laid up under me
Like I can't wait to share who this nigga chose over me
You fail to see I escaped your toxic tendencies
Got a new bitch that understands to give me space to breathe
And that body is so heavenly
Demon time cause ones not enough for me
But that too, you will never see

Lately
I've been out here faded
Ten toes down, save me
Baby
Gotta stand strong on this will
Lately
I've been out here drinkin'
You're what I'm missin'
Listen
Gotta stand strong on this will

All I need is some dedication
Hard work plus patience
I'm talking long nights, perspiration
I'm talking took Neo 3 movies just to beat the fucking matrix
I can really say that I built myself, ground up
How you move on if your mom still hit me up
Bouta be a long year, better button up
Heard you not a fan, well I do not give a fuck
Niggas laugh and play
Acting like I wasn't facing 8
Like I didn't have to show my grades just to beat a case
Like I wasn't locked in my P.O.'s book of dates
And people look up to me like I'm the one
But really I'm just God's son
Really just Lilly's son
So I cop it twice for the times we couldn't afford one
No excuse, when she backed down bookies with a gun
Grams hold it down like the weight of a ton

Lately
I've been out here faded
Ten toes down, save me
Baby
Gotta stand strong on this will
Lately
I've been out here drinkin'
You're what I'm missin'
Listen
Gotta stand strong on this will

How you expect for me to settle down with you
Striving for my goals, baby tell me what's the issue
If I'm one you would be lucky enough to be two
You misconstrue the want and think I need you
Shawty your complacency don't even stack up
You talkin' future and that never really add up
And I wasn't given life just to be stuck
This To the City just wait for the re-up

You know who I am
Elijah
Yeah