Lyrics Rather/Think Back - Novian Wright

Laying on a bench like I'm homeless
Shorty on the ground blunt rolling
Light in my pocket she lit now smoking
Away while the day fades away in the open

Caught in my thoughts take notice
Everybody moving
Places they going
Whole lotta life here in motion
All move slow high medicine dosage
High

Nah, nah, nah, nah, nah, nah
Nah, nah, nah, nah, nah, nah
Nah, nah, nah, nah, nah, nah
Nah, nah, nah, nah, nah, nah

Yea
Look
I don't even party if I do I'm in the back
Waiting on my people and asking round where they at
People shrugging shoulders like they addicted to crack
I'm spiraling at the moment I'm saying "Novi relax"
Don't got social anxiety but I get an attack
I feel it in my chest man the pain as sharp as an axe
I expect way too much it's a issue i'm tryna cap
Until it's gone and I don't gotta worry if it's coming back

Because I had it
I had sense
Nights when I would write over the mattress
Pencil all stubby got more in cubby's by masses
I hate hearing that I ain't blow up yet and it's tragic
They think that I've gave everything but it's just a fragment
I'm still tryna make sure I'm not emotionally absent
Feel my potential fly just like what's under Aladdin
To the point where i'm tryna grow but I'm pushed back in, back in

And I'd rather be numb again than have to deal with this shit anymore
Yea I'd rather be numb again than have to deal with this shit anymore
Yea I'd rather be numb again than have to deal with this shit anymore
I rather be
I rather be
I rather be

I feel like I'm watching my life on TV
Sitting watching me live but I don't feel free
I've seen people switch up their decisions just to please me
Was never what I wanted but I guess that it was easy
Just to go along with it
Young and dumb saw nothing wrong with it
It was me being persuaded that's what you calling it
Sorry shit
I be talking to myself
I get into arguments
I know it sounds like I'm crazy but I'm not this is
Me gaining control over everything that's dark within
And throwing it out so it ain't hard to win
When it comes to this battle I've tried my hardest in
Day after day could never could never call it quits
Been going on
Since we was back in that apartments
Lifting all of our problems while ma and pops was in offices
Working day by day i've always wanted
To be as strong as them but right now I feel like I'm falling

Yea
It's that time
I see you now
You made your way out of high school now you
Going on to the next level of college
I tell you
Be strong
When you feel like the world-
The world is on your back
Be brave

Aii
Think back
When we had to klink that
Drank in a solo red cup
Made the money rain weathermen

King facts
Only thing I sing that
Educate my kids in the future
When they ask of black excellence

Think back
When I wore the rings that
Got the compliments
I still do
Shit my style so repetitive

Think back
When my pops had blinked at
All the shit I'm rocking
Said that "you should go ahead and cop a letterman"

Blinked back
Ask him why you think that
I should be wearing that
When I ain't ever been on no athletic shit

Took a while but now I know that if you give a fuck how others judge you
Then your confidence is gonna lose effectiveness

Member when he told me never switch the way I write
Cuz one day ima find a crowd who's really gonna start accepting it

So everyday I wake up thinking bout some new ideas
And grind harder than Tariq when he was tryna get his fellowship