Lyrics Defective Consciousness - Numb$kull

Hey you what's a day in your shoes
Me? guess I'm searching for my truth
My mental be suicidal from a young age I had to bury all my idols
Uh and it's hard to find a way to feel safe
When the adrenaline kicks in every room you'll be amazed
And why does the human mind always feels like a maze
I'm sick of being this person set my body ablaze
And I'm done wasting my time on these
Stupid motherfuckers who never know any better
No family it's going to be a cold December fuck
And trust still doesn't mean shit to me
I can't let go of what this created in me
Always Searching for the bigger pictures stuck in my mental prison
Breath deep to seek my composure does this shit really matter
None of this will matter in the end in the end
We're all looking for ways to tell our tales before we die alone
Existence is a one way ticket and
My trip has turned me to stone turn to stone
Hey you what's a day in your shoes
Me? Guess I'm searching for the truth
My mental be parasiticidal
From a young age had to accept we weren't vital
Uh and it's hard to find a way to feel love
When everyone around you are nothing but a bunch of scrubs
And why does my mind feel it's filled with fucking drugs
I'm sick of the skin I was placed in please end to it
I'm done wasting my time with these
Stupid motherfuckers who never know any better
I'm a Stupid motherfucker who never knew any better
And I'm done wasting all my time one these
Stupid motherfuckers who never know any better
No family it's going to be a cold December fuck

Bury the pain in a state of anger to make use of it later
Break the bones when it comes to violence don't be a stranger
Oh my fucking god
Bury the pain in a state of anger to make use of it later
Break the bones when it comes to violence don't be the stranger
Did this kid ever made it home to this day sometimes I still wonder
The sirens in the distance is proof that they haven't got closer

I'm ashamed of who I've became