Lyrics Dualism - Numb$kull

I'm Wasting all my fucking time
With these thoughts
In mind don't ask if I'm fine
Waking up everyday push the void
I cannot keep on going so stop asking me to

Change how the fuck do you want me to change
This body is the essence of nightmares a vessel made to carry my pain
I couldn't give a fuck how you live and who's the one to blame
Gimme me a second chance Cuz God I'm going insane
They hate me but don't know I sign up for it myself
The noose that gave my neck a smile I tied this shit myself
My Ambition is a way to distract me from the fact
That Death will come but maybe death will be a gift in itself
Can I believe in God
If he don't believe in me
Pain is real and you can see
It's fucking taking over me
Could you believe in a God
If he were to be like me
Life is real and you can see
It's really fucking killing me
Hold up is it fine if I lay down
My thoughts are spinning simply sickening
Fucking dismantling
Forever cursed he hold my hand
And said to me lets make it worst
She hates me but don't know I sign up for it myself
The razor that gave my wrist a cut I sharp it myself
My illusion is a way to distract me from the fact
Happiness will come maybe happiness is a cursed itself
Can I believe in God
If he don't believe in me
Pain is real and you can see
It's fucking taking over me
Could you believe in a God
If he were to be like me
Life is real and you can see
It's really fucking killing me

I've fallen down to the rock bottom but then the floor gave out
They came to me and said show us what's your all about
Turn it in and push it deeper
The choices I've made on earth
Turned the dirt on my grave colder