Lyrics Honest - OSKI

Now I ain't never been good with confrontations
And I ain't good with tryna end a conversation
I just blow things off, I don't say sh*t
'Cause when it's not a problem what's the point in tryna make it?
But you a different kind
You read between my lines
You look into my eyes
You see inside my mind
You know just how I work
Know how my gears grind
You know me better, I ain't honest all the time

You say you don't wanna change me, but you mad I don't change
Say I'm acting immature, but we about the same age
You tell me to be honest so I'm lying in your face
Let's just fight again tomorrow, same time, same place
We struggling with each other I can't even keep my peace
Tryna clear my mind from lies that I'm starting to believe
The things you say they hurt me, but I know it ain't worth it
I just want you to trust me
I wish that I could just be

Honest with you
That I could always tell you the truth
But I would rather lie to myself
If only I could lie next to you
I wish I could be honest with you
That I could always tell you the truth
But I would rather lie to myself
If only I could lie next to you

I'm a liar I'm a fuck up I'm a mess
This the type of sh*t that's gonna put me to the test
You been running through my mind and it's been hours since you left
But you're declining all my calls and you ignoring all my texts
Don't know what the f*ck I'm even tryna hide from you
You know my secrets, know my darkness and my light, you do
I mean, I guess I never meant to show this side to you
The side of me that doesn't care if he is lying to you

'Cause we be fighting, we be arguing, we be trying to make up
'Cause I hate it when I feel like you about to break up
All these half ass truths that I'm just tryna make up
Tryna cover up my face, ain't no use for make-up
Angry when I go to bed, nervous when I wake up
Used to call you on your cellphone, gotta get my Drake up
I'm not tryna make war, I'm just tryna make love
'Cause I just want you to trust me
I wish that I could just be

Honest with you
That I could always tell you the truth
But I would rather lie to myself
If only I could lie next to you
I wish I could be honest with you
That I could always tell you the truth
But I would rather lie to myself
If only I could lie next to you

I wish that I could just be honest
I wish that I could just be honest

You ain't gotta lie to me
I just wanna be real for you, I just wanna be real for you

Honest with you
That I could always tell you the truth
But I would rather lie to myself
If only I could lie next to you
I wish I could be honest with you
That I could always tell you the truth
But I would rather lie to myself
If only I could lie next to you

I just wanna be real for you, I just wanna be real for you