Lyrics What I Get - Preach

I ain't been the same since I did the shit
Needle to the vein drain the liquid in
Memories of pain since I was a kid
I'll never forget I guess that's what I get

That's what I get
Memories of pain since I was a kid
Since I was a kid
I'll never forget I guess that's what I get

I guess that's what I get for all my poor decisions
Pouring more of this liquor to blur these wicked visions
My Memories won't leave me be I call it karma
They called my momma
She called the doctor
He called it trauma
Traumatized from the lies that fell from the lips of family
Feeling like the ones who are still alive just can't fucking stand me
Hand me all the guilt
You can the place blame on these broken shoulders
I'll carry the weight of the world until this life is over
Colder and colder this soldiers soul wields a broken holster
Tattered clothes from bullet holes and blood
He still holds his composure
Closer and closer he marches along this path of death
Until the end with his last breath he finally says

I ain't been the same since I did this shit
Like needles to the vein drain the liquid in
Memories of pain since I was a kid
I'll never forget I guess that's what I get

That's what I get
Memories of pain since I was a kid
Since I was a kid
I'll never forget I guess that's what I get

I get the fact that nobody can ever feel this pressure
A .38 and a razor blade laying on the dresser
I never centered my pleasures around hopeless endeavors
Severed dreams scream as it seems as though I'll live this forever
I measure up the 2 cups and stir up the pills and potions
Hoping that the mix of this shit will help me kill my emotions
Slowly choking I'm smoking away the stress that's in me
I float away to a place where maybe they might forgive me
Wit no light in me I envy the ones who stray from darkness
I hold the semi it's tempting to shoot they say I'm heartless
Regardless I pull apart the pieces of thoughts that taunt me
But yet expect to find peace inside of these dreams the haunt me

I ain't been the same since I did the shit
Like needles to the vein drain the liquid in
Memories of pain since I was a kid
I'll never forget I guess that's what I get

I ain't been the same since I did the shit
Like needles to the vein drain the liquid in
Memories of pain since I was a kid
I'll never forget I guess that's what I get

That's what I get
Memories of pain since I was a kid
Since I was a kid
I'll never forget I guess that's what I get