Lyrics Insecurities / Sorry Mama - Prolific

I got a lot of situations on my mind, I'm contemplating all the time
I spend on making all these rhymes, there's so much faking in your eyes
My insecurities is needing some security
Cos' I cannot protect my mental health, it's always hurting me
I'm way too short, I'm way too skinny
I'm a 2, I'm a 10, and I'm filled with pity
Tell me I got lucky, lottery
I hear it every day, I always say it doesn't bother me, there's gotta be a lot to see
I'm human though, yeah I'm human though
Yeah I bleed the same blood although I wish that I was different
Perfecting everything about myself so I ain't distant
I wish I had more trust so I could be a bit committed
I wish I looked like him, I wish I wasn't thin
I wish that I was stronger and I had some thicker skin
I wish that I could swallow all my problems in some Gin
The only thing I love is my personality from within
Because I, grew up being judged for every little thing
And so I cover all my problems, making other people sing it
In my lyrics, I don't like writing from the spirit
Therapeutic, but afraid that my mama gonna hear it
And worry bout' my mental health and try to make me clear it
I'm sorry mama, I'm sorry mama

I'm sorry mama, I been hurting for some years
But I just hide it in my notes, cos it's not cool for boys to tear
And when I'm all alone, I'm feeling nothing but the feat
But I'll be perceived as weak if I go venting to my peers
I'm sorry mama
They gon' act like I'm below em', act as if I do not know em'
But I cannot control em'
We live in a world where depression is a trend
And people that be really struggling get told that they're pretending
I joke around and say that all the pain is never ending
I really do believe it, everything is so depressing, I'm sorry mama
I'm sorry mama, I can't find me a peace of mind
And when I do my insecurities are taking all the shine, my pros will barely get the time
They'll barely get the time, and when they do my insecurities are taking all the shine
I'm sorry mama