Lyrics If I Should Die - R.A.R.E.

Oooooohh Oooohhhh
Time
Yeah yeah
What a wonderful thing
If I should die

If I should die
I wish to sing you a song
Break down and let you know who I was all along
Thanks to everyone for putting up with me
I've made my share of mistakes in this life that I lead
So what if I try too hard
I just wanna be loved
I had my questions and doubts
When I looked up above
But I know you exist
Why would you abandon me
I never saw your face but there were times when you touched me
I can't wait to see you but I feel now is not the time
I need to prevail and conquer what's mine
But if you feel you need to take me I suggest that you do so
For now I shall fight all my battles on my own
There's too much work to do
I can sleep when I'm dead
Get rid of this alcohol that's eating my head
I want to be as close to perfect as I can be
Capture serenity and leave this world complete
And I'll never be a star
Mother fuck the fame
At least I know it in my heart
Cause I'll never be the same
I just visualized my unborn child's eyes
So I sacrifice to give him a better life
I just want to see redemption cause I ain't never been happy
I hide from this world cause I don't think they understand me
They'll never figure out as hard as I fight
I guess they'll hear it through the air of the night
If I should die

I thank the Lord above for helping me til this day
So many things to do in life
So many words to say
And I forbid if anything should happen to me
And if I should die

So much to live for and my life is incomplete
So much corruption that you can't defeat
And it's the world that really makes you think sometimes
And if I should die

As I close my eyes and later I see images coming slowly
Photographic memories of me being a little shorty
Talk about Mr. Ignorant, Mr. No Morals
Live for today and I was like fuck tomorrow
I ain't gon lie I scarred so many females
Innocent to crazy ladies
It gets fatal
When a girl talks about suicide
Saying if she can't have me then she'd rather die
So I hold her to her words and I hold her tight
And I told her baby girl I ain't worth your life
Cause if it was meant to be you'd be my wife
But you can't solve situations by ending your life
If only destiny answers to all questions
Then I'd leave this damn world in a few seconds
That's not what God intended
I'm here for a reason
Cause so many have died
And I'm still breathing
But then again you can't predict fate
Cause when it's your time to go there's no escape
I thank the Lord for getting my father through surgery
That was the most critical point of my life
That really hurted me
I was on both knees begging for forgiveness
I asked God to take my life instead of his
Crucial moments like this is what makes you say why or wonder
If I should die

I thank the Lord above for helping me til this day
So many things to do in life
So many words to say
And I forbid if anything should happen to me
And if I should die

So much to live for and my life is incomplete
So much corruption that you can't defeat
And it's the world that really makes you think sometimes
And if I should die

On 6/25/84 I was brought to earth
My parents named me Cheng Yang on the day of my birth
My moms almost got deceased when she had me
But she stayed strong and fought and fought and she recovered it
That's why my aunts and uncles they said I was the chosen one
I feel blessed finding out I was the lucky one
The third oldest son
That'll do anything for them when they get older
At the age of six a lady tried to poison me
She poured Mr. Clean in my milk to see if I would collapse but I didn't
You know who you are
I told my parents and you got the bitchin
Five years later
The best time of my life
Became a naughty boy but everything was still tight
A group of boys and girls taking the bus to Jackson Park
Walking around the city till it's dark
At the age of seventeen the worst time of my life
Somebody very special left me and my family behind
I looked up to him
He was my idol
I see my mom cry every night, even I cried sometimes
And now that I'm at the age of 20 I gotta stay strong
Hoping nothing bad won't go wrong
And I'm always looking positive
But there ain't nothing much you can do
If I should die

I thank the Lord above for helping me til this day
So many things to do in life
So many words to say
And I forbid if anything should happen to me
If I should die

So much to live for and my life is incomplete
So much corruption that you can't defeat
And it's the world that really makes you think sometimes
And if I should die

If I should die yeah