Lyrics Harder - R3NDER

Overthinking every memory, like will my life ever get harder?
I guess i will never know, that's why i always say to my bro
"Yo let's go to the bottleo"
Maybe then we will feel alive, when we taking them xannies with the lean
And that's why i always went to drugs because my life is so hard
I stare at the celling every night, maybe if i'm high it will be alright
But when the demons are near by, nothing ever feels right
Yeah i can't trust these people anymore, i have these trust issues
Because so many people left me and now i'm just so depressed
Press it down till i get stressed, lonely guess my life is a mess
Now i feel like i gotta make this music so i feel
Something but dread
Yo i guess i just wanna be dead

So far from home, just have these raps in my dome
I don't have anywhere to roam anymore, vaping on that 2 ohm
Everyone hates me, im just so busy, making this music
No time for a relationship, shit that's why i'm so alone
All i can do is moan when i have to get into the studio again
Maybe that's why i'm a lonewolf, never get shit done on time
All i can think of is that lime in the glass of vodka
I just feel like i'm not in my prime, so all i do is rhyme
Thinking is it my time?
Am i just a dick
Am i just a bad person?
I know i can change just never put it past me, because everyone's pasting me

So addicted to drugs and alcohol, that i never see the real world
But leaves me asking do i wanna see that
They say it's fucked up, people getting stabbed everywhere
Lucas don't you dare look at that person the wrong way
You'll be 6ft deep, fuck is it really that bad?
Met my ex and every since i've been sad, wtf why is that?