Lyrics Dying Inside - RBJ

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The phone ain't even ringing I still pick it up like it is
I know you ain't text me but I still text you first
I'm dying inside but I say I'm okay
I'm smiling while holding a gun to my uh

I guess it's my fault that you don't love me
You can't trust me
I gave you everything and it crushed me
But heartbreak it don't always go both ways
To me you're doing just fine while I can't find a way
But I might not want to let go of the feeling inside
Cause even tho it fucking hurts you're still in my life
Yea this heartache it makes me feel close to you
And I don't like the pain but don't know what to do
So I put on black shades and say that I'm okay but
Truthfully I know that I be lying and my face holds
It all if you just look and try to understand my pain hoe
The memories they get me every time oh
Uh luckily I got a couple true friends that wanna help me
But what am I gon' say
That I'm dying or lying or crying everyday like
Why didn't you stay why do you hurt me this way
All the things I've been through I never died til' this day so
I can't be alone tonight
These heartaches and hurting
My inside is burning
But I guess what I learned is
Never give your all to nobody you'll end up hurting

The phone ain't even ringing I still pick it up like it is
I know you ain't text me but I still text you first
I'm dying inside but I say I'm okay
I'm smiling while holding a gun to my uh

I been battling with my depression for a while now
Look inside my eyes to see I'm hurting I'm like what now
Devil tryna get to me so I gotta be strong now
But if u ever wanna try again why can't it be now
Cause all the things you said
And all the promises
Wonder if they ever held some truth or did you lie to me
Like lie to me lie lie to me lie lie
Like lie to me lie lie to me lie lie to me lie lie lie

The phone ain't even ringing I still pick it up like it is
I know you ain't text me but I still text you first
I'm dying inside but I say I'm okay
I'm smiling while holding a gun to my