Lyrics It Hurts - Roderick Porter

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Lonely
But not when you hold me
Your beauty weighs on me
This feeling′s too good

Ay, the sun shinin' out the window
So why the fuck it rainin′ everywhere that I go?
And through the sadness, I've been happy couple times though
But the peaks been lookin' weak whenever I′m low
Muffucka I′ma drown in my depression
And I don't fall in love, I just find a new obsession
I been thinkin′ 'bout my fuckin′ death like every second
Yeah, I guess that means my mind's a different type of lethal weapon
Ay, yeah, my heart the place where all my scars at
Often wishin′ that I died inside the car crash
See he was drunk when he swerved into my fuckin' lane
Shoulda hit the gas and just be done with all this fuckin' pain
Wakin′ up to check the clock and going back to sleep
I close the blinds ′cause I don't even wanna fuckin′ eat
Too many shadows in my head, my demons free to creep
Nowadays I always keep a bottle in my fuckin' reach
Keep bottle in my fuckin′ reach
God-fucking-dammit

And I continue smokin' dope until I comatose
Lately seems that life has got me on the fuckin′ ropes
Maybe pickin' up a double cup will help me cope
'Cause everyday I keep on runnin′ outta fuckin′ hope
Daily headaches, keep the Advil always in my throat
And all my friends been the reason that I'm still afloat
And I get letters people say they like the shit I wrote
Well listen up ′cause my sorrow never runnin' low
Last year I watched my granny go and slip away
Looked into her eyes, she didn′t know my fuckin' name
And I been hopin′ that she made it to a better place
'Cause lookin' back, I think I died upon that fuckin′ day
Lookin′ back, I think