Lyrics Forgiven - Rowlan

I got this offsetting uncomfortable energy on my mind
I been at this seven years and watch family fall behind
I'm losing touch with my people
I'm growing good with the bad
I'm thinking less about others
Should I reach out to my dad
He missed, my whole childhood, who's really the victim
When I get rich I'll fly him out, and say the 3 year old missed him
I never knew him as a man and I ain't prepared to lie
I just want his conscious clear, in case we meet in the sky
We won't be father son
Although we look just alike
Let's have a friendship
Man to man, and just catch up on this life
Its crazy
Crazy things alot of nonsensical feelings on can haunt you
Just know that if I bring up the past it's not to taunt you
It never was, well maybe before
But now, I'm truly happy, and I'm actually mature
I understand things happen
And it's all love either way
I'm a product of your decisions
At the end of the day

It's not a time, no
It's not a place, no
It's not the season
Give me some space
It's not an maybe
It's not a how
It's a what if
They ain't feeling me now
It's not a time, no
It's not a place, no
It's not the season
Give me some space
It's not an maybe
It's not a how
It's a what if
They ain't feeling me now

If I told you all the things that was on my mind
If I told you all the things that was on my mind
If I told you all the things that was on my mind
You'd go crazy, crazy, crazy

Yeah I know, my vision ain't flawless
But I was raised by radio
When moms bronco was stalling
Slim shady, DMX, 50 Cent, and some Biggie
Got me through dark times I feel they went through it with me
I guess, to full circle Dad
The blame ain't directed
In your direction
I never stopped and blamed some neglection
I blame nothing on a thing
Things happened so well
I thank God every chance
I love how everything fell
I love how everything feel
Love when the struggle is real
I love when the people are fake
Love the excuses they make
Love when they say I ain't great
Love when I make a mistake
Love it alot when they love me
But love it most when they hate
I'm great

It's not a time, no
It's not a place, no
It's not the season
Give me some space
It's not an maybe
It's not a how
It's a what if
They ain't feeling me now
It's not a time, no
It's not a place, no
It's not the season
Give me some space
It's not an maybe
It's not a how
It's a what if
They ain't feeling me now

Swear Destiny stuff is crazy
Leave me thinking I am too
I wrote this song last week
And guess who hit me out the blue
I was gonna ask my sis
Ashley, if she could get in touch
Then I received a voice mail
From my father man life is nuts
I'm convinced, everything happens all for a reason
Spoke to my dad and got caught up on a couple seasons
Talked for a few, we good, but will it ever be normal
And if they made a time machine dad, would you walk through that portal

It's not a time, no
It's not a place, no
It's not the season
Give me some space
It's not an maybe
It's not a how
It's a what if
They ain't feeling me now
It's not a time, no
It's not a place, no
It's not the season
Give me some space
It's not an maybe
It's not a how
It's a what if
They ain't feeling me now