Lyrics reaching - SalientSongs

I been reaching you're not right here
I was grasping now I'm finding
It's not really even like that
Think my mind was playing tricks
You can feel it when you're hit
That felt like a ton of bricks
That's not really what I meant
My words always getting twisted
But don't you get it twisted
I'm still that man you missing
No asses I be kissing
Always kept it real and
Emotions don't reveal them
I gotta keep them hidden
And I gotta keep my distance
And just collect my pension
Grab a knife and cut the tension
Throw a penny get to wishing
Blowing up my mentions
My pride they put a dent in

Be myself or be someone else
Change or stay in hell
Vape smoke I inhale
It's been fucking up my health
And dig in with your nails
Least I'm feeling something there
Do you really even care?
Go there I won't dare

They just sit and stare
Never ending nightmare
Reaching but you're not there
You're not there

Be myself or be someone else
Change or stay in hell
Vape smoke I inhale
It's been fucking up my health
And dig in with your nails
Least I'm feeling something there
Do you really even care?
Go there I won't dare

I wish it was august
Summers too fucking happy
I know that is not me
So they try to stop me
I cannot be that different
You're not even listening
Stop I hate you preaching
Suck my life you're leeching
Can I stop this reaching
Out the country like Mitchy
Out this world like E.T
Benefits I been reaping
Can you stop it's seeping
Back then it was easy
Wish I could just repeat
But life it just keeps going

They just sit and stare
Never ending nightmare
Reaching but you're not there
You're not there