Lyrics sometimes, i pretend like i don't see it - Shiki XO

Well I think everyone I love has turned against me
And i think everything you told me was a lie
And sometimes, I pretend like I don't see it
But I think, deep down, it must eat you up inside

And I know that I'm selfish, I'll tell you I'm sorry
But then I fuck it up again
I know you're trying to help but when you call
I know we can't be more than friends
If I'm not enough for you right now
Go ahead and leave
Cuz It's not getting any better
You can blame me if you want

Well I think everyone I love has turned against me
And i think everything you told me was a lie
And sometimes, I pretend like I don't see it
But I think, deep down, it must eat you up inside

And she said don't go
The nights get so cold
But I still ran away, I hate LA
Can't eat, my bones show
And I know that you're hurting
For that, I'm sorry
But I won't let you take it out on me
I won't let go of my hopes
Don't say it's just a dream

I think I should call it a night
I've been staring too long at this screen
If you wanna leave, you can go
It makes it easy for me

Well I think everyone I love has turned against me
And i think everything you told me was a lie
And sometimes, I pretend like I don't see it
But I think, deep down, it must eat you up inside