Lyrics Dear Dysphoriac - Shius

How many times have I lied to myself
How many wishes and nightmares have I kept on the shelf
From the toys that they gave me, barbie dolls and the like
And the secrets hidden in the medicine I take to sleep at night
HRT, I wish that were me, the bold men and women on the streets
They almost look like me
They almost look like me

Shattered glass reflects all the flaws that I am
Dysphoria kills whatever dreams that I knew that I had
Is it the lack of power, or the confidence in me
When I close my eyes, all I see is what I've been
Just a boy in a girls body, there's nothing to see
I am dreaming of change, yet I think I cannot be
Anything but what the mirror reflects back at me
Yet this body screams it isn't me, isn't me, isn't me

I was born in the wrong body, sick in the mind
With a different voice, and a different life
Had I been honest I wouldn't want to be alive
In this vessel that won't represent how I feel inside
Should I change? I'm not who they expect me to be
In this world of binary I was expected to be me
But I have yet to be me
I have yet to be me

Shattered glass reflects all the flaws that I am
Dysphoria kills whatever dreams that I knew that I had
Is it the lack of power, or the confidence in me
When I close my eyes, all I see is what I've been
Just a boy in a girls body, there's nothing to see
I am dreaming of change, yet I think I cannot be
Anything but what the mirror reflects back at me
Yet this body screams it isn't me, isn't me, isn't me

Dear Dysphoriac, I accept who I am
Irregardless of the fact I am choosing to change
I respect my roots, I respect who I've been
But the life that lays before me will be something new
And I am still afraid, I know I may not be accepted
But when push comes to shove, I will know who I am
And this is who I am
This is who I am
I am coming out