Lyrics Mother Moon - Shylock

Ya know, I dunno
If I ever said this before
But I miss you everyday
With all of my whole heart
And every day I wake up
Eyes open, my day starts
My brain switches on
But one part just stays dark
There's no light, it's like
A tunnel has caved in
To a place so sacred
That no one can break in
You'd think, search top to bottom
You would but you can't climb it
Like when you'd hide something
So good that you can't find it
But it's there, you know it is
At least you think it is
So you stare at the place
Where you made sure it would always sit
But it's gone, long gone
But I still can't look away
Cuz I'm convinced I'm playing tricks
Just a malfunction in my brain
But wait
I'm not saying I'm insane
What I'm saying is I can't explain
Cuz I've never faced this kind of pain
I can't accept it
Been over 8 years since the day
You were taken away
Now I look to the sky and say

No matter where I go
How I roll
If I slip and fall
No matter where I go
If I fall
I wonder if you're with me
No matter where I go
Across the globe
Somewhere I dunno
No matter where I go
Now I know
That you're always with me

I saw almost snow
It's like rain, but it's falling slow
Did you put it there just for me?
Sometimes I don't know
But it makes me think of you
And your whole gravitational pull
That's pulling me towards you
All these years I've tried to just let go
But I stay calm, holding on
Never ever letting go
I never will, you can go
And try to pry it from my cold
Dead hands, understand
No one can ever make it so
So I say to you, Goddamn
I'm never gonna loosen up my hold
Hold up my end, like I said
I'll make you proud as best I can
And if I can't, ask again
Cuz if I can't do it, no one can
It's in my head, it never ends
Never giving up or giving in
It's in the plan for me find an
Answer that makes me whole again
So here I go, across the globe
Trying to prove something I dunno
Or at least find an answer
To a question that's never been put on hold
And if ever you believe
I'm not searching or I'm slacking
Know for you I'd go to the end of the earth
And back and forth and back again

No matter where I go
How I roll
If I slip and fall
No matter where I go
If I fall
I wonder if you're with me
No matter where I go
Across the globe
Somewhere I dunno
No matter where I go
Now I know
That you're always with me

I was walking through the graveyard last night and I saw a deer
I actually looked up to the sky and asked if you put it there
I could hardly believe it, years of questions gone unheard
And for once I thought it couldn't have been made for me more clear
I had an epiphany, no scattered thoughts here and there
I thought you were gone forever, but now I'm seeing you everywhere
It's like all this time I've been blind and once again I can see
And now I'm seeing things so clearly that once again I can breathe
Cuz now I see you in the ground, the rain, the snow, and the clouds
I see you in the stars, in rainbows and every flower
I see you on the face and the smile of every child
I hear you calling out my name through the wind, every time I smile
Feel warmth from the sun on my face, but I know it's you
I see you watching over me every night, my Mother Moon
It's like you're shouting at me every time my eyes are open
And when they're closed, no matter, I feel you in my soul and

No matter where I go
How I roll
If I slip and fall
No matter where I go
If I fall
I wonder if you're with me
No matter where I go
Across the globe
Somewhere I dunno
No matter where I go
Now I know
That you're always with me