Lyrics Outcast - SickLonely

I just keep pushin' although i do listen
I'm feelin' like i be like nobody else
Still I be showing my soul is so open
I'm sittin' here hopin' I figure it out
Count off the list of the people that wish that they knew me
But in the past counted me out
Never did know me but now that I'm Lonely
Don try to go fuck with me now

I've been cast out like a spell, damn
Down bad on my luck lately
Karma lurkin' hope she don't chase me, uh
This life is beyond crazy
When everyday your stuck in a circle, uh
Paranoid thinkin' everybody gon hurt you, uh
Played a fool by all the fucking people you turned to
And every single nightmare you were thinking of turned true
Stuck at crossroads look how it turned you
Step into my hell and i promise that it burn you
I don't got patience but i got virtue
I'm holding my ground but I'm sorry if i hurt you
I could never hold my tongue
Since it all begun I'm numb brain been spun
But i be living like i learnt to
Its hard to grasp with this overcast
Hanging over us mental spinnin' like a whirlpool
And all the while i be drowin' up in the deep
Why my heart be beating so cold but still i be feeling the heat
And a part of me never flourish my mental my own opponent
I wonder if i can own it is there a reason for me?
I don't know nothin'
Maybe why i roll somethin'
Say it blunt hope it stick in your head, uh
Take a breath and drift from the edge
What's broken if you cant make amends? Woah

I just keep pushin' although i do listen
I'm feelin' like i be like nobody else
Still I be showing my soul is so open
I'm sittin' here hopin' I figure it out
Count off the list of the people that wish that they knew me
But in the past counted me out
Never did know me but now that I'm Lonely
Don try to go fuck with me now