Lyrics SM-Control - Smrealmusic

Yea...
I′m what most rappers fear
Coming back from the dead
Ain't no way I′ll go back to my bed
Voices in my head screaming to get out
Tell me what should I do to keep them out
If I kill myself a lot of people I will be leaving behind
Like they didn't matter to me
I feel so bothered by every single voice
They will continue to say that I'm not worth it
Until I come back from my hiding
The only way I can leave these voices behind is through writing
Just like Texas I must be bipolar
Cause one day I get mad
The next I get so sad
Like where′s the knife I want to end it all
Unlike most rappers I′m not scared to fall
I'll pick myself right back up
Cause when it comes to emotions
I don′t play around
This girl at my last show said she wanted to end it all
I told her stay around and don't fall
Cause there′s a future for anyone out there
Who is feeling suicidal
Don't let your fears win
Cause if you do they will just invite more demons in
Just like a previous song I released saying that there′s no demons in head
But every day I look at myself in the Mirror
I hear the voices and they are getting clearer
Begging me to let them out of their cell
Did it once before and I fell
Guess that's why I was feeling depressed
Like I didn't have anyone maybe I should leave it to rest
Cause if I′m not good then I′m not at my best
I'll be lying to the rest by telling them everything will be okay
But we all know that fear goes one way
That′s through our minds
We all have our own demons inside
But some of us are just really scared so we hide
And try to act like everything is okay
Knowing that fear is now trapped inside
Making us feel like no one would care if we are alive
That's when depression arrives
To turn the keys in your brain
So that he can start to drive And control your mind