Lyrics Not a Pessimist - Sophie Pecora

I hate the way my mind makes me think
Nothing good is working out for me, mm-mmm
I've been blinded by the evil side
I just wanna see the good in life

I feel like my, oh my, my mind is heavy, making me believe
That everything that's bad is coming right to me, right to me

I'm not a pessimist
I don't mean to lost it
I'm confused why I think like this
I'm not a pessimist
I can't leave my room
It's hard to do, but I try my best

I'm not a pessimist
Da-da-da, da-da-da, da-da

I hate the way I'm never satisfied
I'm only happy for a little time, oh whoa
Then I think of everything I don't have yet
And it makes me cry
Yeah, it makes me like

I wonder what I gotta do
To feel joy for longer than two seconds
I always think it's fleeting
Thinking that it'd leave for no reason
Good times are only here for a season
When did I start to believe these things?
It's taking over my mind
Everything seems not all right
I'm not okay, I don't mean to be this way
Putting myself through pain
Trying so hard to be a positive person
My mind says, "No way"
I've read all those books, seen all those speeches 'bout the power of the brain
I think they're pretty accurate, 'cause mine has power over me

I'm not a pessimist
I don't mean to lost it
I'm confused why I think like this
I'm not a pessimist
I can't leave my room
It's hard to do, but I try my best

I'm not a pessimist
Da-da-da, da-da-da, da-da
I'm not a pessimist
Da-da-da, da-da-da, da-da

Nobody gets it, they think I'm being dramatic
I'm not a negative person, it's a really bad habit
Yeah, there's more to me than you see
I really wanna think differently

I feel like my, oh my, my mind is heavy, making me believe
That everything that's bad is coming right to me, right to me

I'm not a pessimist
I don't mean to lost it
I'm confused why I think like this
I'm not a pessimist
I can't leave my room
It's hard to do, but I try my best

I'm not a pessimist
Da-da-da, da-da-da, da-da
I'm not a pessimist
Da-da-da, da-da-da, da-da