Lyrics Black Joy - Sycosis

You wasn't part of the plan it took me 30 years to understand
That I ain't the one who make it, debated over again
Rather or not to keep you, Rather or not to lead you
Knowing that I conceived how could I turn and delete you
Been in that clinic before, saw the pill and the needle
Walking out she in tears, probably thinking I'm evil
I'm thinking we dodged a bullet give our some time to build
We made love a week later ain't give ourselves no time to heal
I'm thinking its time to chill, hit D.R. for a vacay
Tell her don't take the pill, wasn't thinking about no baby
Was thinking about my hay day, be 20 something and rich
I notice she getting thick, acting funny and sick
I'm like damn

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See now I understand, every thing it takes to be a man
I'm asking for forgiveness while holding on to your hand
Praying we can make it and I never let you down
On your head is the crown my first boy
You bring me Black Joy

The only time I'm happy is around you
A lot of you inside of me, inside of you is all truth
Its all new, still trying to make the adjustment
Fell back from everything, rapping, writing, and hustling
Problems feel like they double we struggle to stay afloat
Before I ever let you sink, my bare hands will build a boat
Thinking about your future, birthdays and graduations
How your grandpa gave me advice, on all these situations
I'm hoping to build a kingdom, hand you over the castle
Be the first one in the crowd while you flipping over your tassel
Cheering you from the sideline, basketball or soccer
Instead of being a rapper hope you strive to be an author
I'm hoping that I can offer, encouragement and support
But beware of Snoop Dogs while you trying to build you a fort
See you'll catch that one later, we'll watch the movie together
I'll be here in any weather to make it better

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See now I understand, every thing it takes to be a man
I'm asking for forgiveness while holding on to your hand
Praying we can make it and I never let you down
On your head is the crown my first boy
You bring me Black Joy

On your head is the crown
You bring me black joy
On your head is the crown
You bring me black joy
On your head is the crown