Lyrics Paradise - Terry Redherring

Got a lot of problems in my plate, I need some space
Enough being sorry all these flaws I must embrace
I need a shine of light, just enough to get by
Accomplish some of my goals before I rest and die
Rage filled my heart, won't let myself explode
The mystery of life, I have yet to decode
Distracting myself, forget about the rainy days
Calming myself without resorting to the blaze

Take me to the paradise that you have conveyed
I keep losing my battles it'd be nice to have some aid
I want to live my life, not a single minute wasted
No matter how much I repent, I'll never be sacred
Gather up my sins, and you'll end up with a novel
The past hope to rise from the dead where's the shovel
Sipping on some poison, doesn't help with my emotion
A trip to memory lane, turned my skin into an ocean
Tryna play my pieces right, I'm in a game of chess
I keep fucking on misfortune but can't produce success
Eyes getting cherry red 'cause my tears I can't suppress
When I said I was okay, I might've lied, I must confess, ugh
I'm flustered and I wonder why I'm stuck on a loop
If happiness a drug, how low do I have to stoop
I pray that I could heal all in one fell swoop
But they told me I gotta dribble if I wanna reach the hoop

Got a lot of problems in my plate, I need some space
Enough being sorry all these flaws I must embrace
I need a shine of light, just enough to get by
Accomplish some of my goals before I rest and die
Rage filled my heart, won't let myself explode
The mystery of life, I have yet to decode
Distracting myself, forget about the rainy days
Calming myself without resorting to the blaze

Lucid dreaming in to feeling something other than my hand
It's been a while since a lady's touch brought me back to La La Land
Sometimes my brain can't understand and follow what my heart demands
Sometimes the burden weighing down my body I can barely stand
Finding peace within myself as I read the books on my shelf
It's every man for himself, tryna win without their help
I want to make a legacy in hopes that y 'all remember me
Fighting off the jealousy and find my own identity
Forgot about religion, spirit went dark roast
Grew insecure 'cause I was friends with some ghost
I'm scared that I'll never be able to live up to the hype
I'm scared that I'll be nothing more than a left swipe
Will I ever be an influence and make a difference
Will I forever eat my screams and stay in silence
Will I be able to maintain the respect and praise
These questions in my head make me wait for the better days

Got a lot of problems in my plate, I need some space
Enough being sorry all these flaws I must embrace
I need a shine of light, just enough to get by
Accomplish some of my goals before I rest and die
Rage filled my heart, won't let myself explode
The mystery of life, I have yet to decode
Distracting myself, forget about the rainy days
Calming myself without resorting to the blaze